Just A Pinch Of Pynch Eheh

i think about this a normal amount btw. if anyone was wondering

It isn't easy for me either.

process:

SIX OF CROWS WEEK △ FAVORITE RELATIONSHIP  ▻ KAZ BREKKER AND INEJ GHAFA                 “No Saint ever watched over me. Not like you have”

related to the post i just reblogged: my ideal post-canon bad kids ending is they all move in together: i like to imagine it's not mordred or seacastor manor but maybe a giant apartment or their own house, and they all just commute via portal (a la compass points & ayda) home and to various lives. like. riz has a detective agency in bastion city. fig travels between hell, leviathan, and home. adaine works partially in fallinel for oracle things, or maybe in bastion city at a less oracle based job. like. imagining everybody in the roommate group chat wondering if riz fell asleep on his desk again so kristen pops into the portal, tosses him back through into their kitchen, and he lands on all fours hissing like a cat. fig is late for game night because she's jamming in hell so adaine just shouts for her through the flaming hell portal in their living room. gorgug handing everyone a packed lunch before they go. group bad kids kitchen is INSANE. fabian: can't cook despite being bullied into learning. he is so bad at it. adaine can make simple meals and likes cooking. pretty good at assembling sandwiches though. fig and kristen can both cook competently but fig hates doing it. riz can cook but makes the most insane optimized shit you've ever seen. gorgug buys groceries and sorts out the chore rotation calendar. adaine put a silence ward around kristen's room. they have a version of cat shelves on the walls but they're little rivers full of water so boggy can float when he wants to. giant crystal tv. fabian has a pull up bar in his doorway. the hangman switches between hellhound form for couch time and ear scratchies and motorcycle form to just chill in the garage. their living room couch is enormous specifically to fit all of them and fig still perches on the armrests and kristen sits on the floor and leans back on gorgug's legs. all of the furniture in their house is built sturdy and enchanted for strength so gorgug doesn't have to worry about breaking it. their dining room table is specially designed so riz can just sit on top of it rather than dealing with a weird chair situation. they have strip lights on the walls, even.

Is this justice? Is this a new dawn?

𝕾𝖍𝖆𝖉𝖔𝖜 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕭𝖔𝖓𝖊 ꜱᴇᴀꜱᴏɴ 1 ʀᴇᴡᴀᴛᴄʜ #52                 ↳𝟷.𝟶𝟹: 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍

Taagnus not as endgame but as meeting your high school sweetheart at the reunion and thinking about what could have been.

Like imagine them falling so completely and utterly in love during the stolen century that when they forget each other its a hole in their chests, raw and stinging when prodded so they leave it alone. Then they meet again and the hole is filled? Probably? I mean, it doesn't hurt quite so much and Magnus's heart glows when Taako makes him chicken soup and Taako's chest feels like it's full of something warm and heavy when he tucks under Magnus's arm to watch the stars but Merle...kind of makes them feel that way too so it must just be having friends for the first time in so long.

And then they remember. And it's like...you were my first love. I forgot you. But I didn't really. I loved someone else but I knew how to love them because of you. And I still love you. But...neither of us is the same person. Julia. Sazed. Raven's Roost. Glamor Springs. It's not even about the fact that Taako has Kravitz now. Its...I don't think I could love you the same way any more, even if I had the energy to try. I think too much has happened. I think too much of me has changed.

Like I just think that Magnus will never be ready to love someone like that again, after Julia. Not even Taako. And it's easier to let him be happy with Kravitz than to untangle this mess.

And I think Taako wants uncomplicated, for once in his life. I think he wants to start over, one last time, and for this time to last, instead of 100 years of wiping the slate clean every year.

And on top of all that, one of them is a human and the other is an elf!! It didn't matter when they died and came back every year, but it does now. It all matters now and--

I think they kiss. Once. I think they gain their memories back and they can't fucking help but squeeze each other tight and kiss each other like they're oxygen. I think they cling to each other, because they forgot, and now they remember and its so good to have you back, I missed you even though you were right there almost but not quite.

I think they kiss. And then they look at each other and realize that this part of their lives is behind them. I think they decide, I can love you, but not like this. I want my best friend back. I thought you'd be the only love I'd ever have but look, I found it again! It hurt to lose you,, but I found love without you. But you... I'll never have you again. So let me have you. As a friend. Different, not less.

Taagnus, not as endgame, but as a memory.

a quiet night in the city we own