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Granny had witnessed a lot of things
Finally finished 😭 Timelapse at the bottom! I had an idea for my Wings of Pages series, where instead of text, it's a book full of botanical illustrations. The majority of the time was spent on the individual flowers for each feather/page of the wings. I really love the look of old botanical books with the water color paintings and the scientific names written in cursive. So I spent way too many hours painting out 20 of these flower pages, and even then, it wasn't enough for the wings so I did have to duplicate some.
Here are the 20 flowers! The HD image of Atlas Botanicus, and all 20 HD flower studies without watermark will be DMed on Patreon.com/Yuumei on May 5th, along with the hours long video recording of how I painted everything.
I want to be very clear, I'm still here...
祝我们，只身轻盈，心栖有处。 May we, too, walk lightly through life, with a heart that knows where it lives. Love and Deepspace (2024), dev. Infold Games
Happy birthday, Sylus 🐦⬛ (4.18)
Spring & Flowers
I was definitely luckier with Catch 22 considering I got all 5 and R1 of 3 of them. But eh, I got my 3 men so I'm happy to stop here.
Started at 44 wishes from hard pity…
Wish 35: Xavier Fragment of Time 😔
Wish 88: Sylus Valleydream Bloom (53 wishes)
Wish 113: Caleb Floating Floraletter (25 wishes)
Wish 148: Zayne Fragrant Possession (35 wishes)
I kept going to 200 wishes to bring down pity and grab the crate to R1 Sylus. Now to go watch the cards and cry and squee! 💜
through the fire | sylus
synopsis : In a world where soulmate marks appear on your skin, yours arrives in red—the color of unrequited love. And the name written there is the last one you ever wanted to see: Zayne, your closest friend, the man you’ve loved in silence for years… and the one already destined to someone else. You learn to smile through the ache, to hide the burn beneath your sleeve, until a chance meeting with a silver-haired stranger named Sylus changes everything. When you pretend he’s your soulmate, he plays along without hesitation. His presence becomes a quiet comfort, steady where your heart is not. But when Zayne starts to look at you differently, to hesitate, to wonder, you’re left caught between the love you’ve always longed for—and the unexpected one who chose you without a mark.
content : soulmate!au, zayne x reader x sylus, zayne x non-mc!reader, unrequited love, angst (light or not, you decide)
You stared at the name scrawled in red across your forearm.
Zayne.
So small. So cruel. So final.
Your breath caught in your throat, a trembling whisper slipping past your lips.
“Why is it his?”
The question barely made a sound, yet it rang loud in the silence of your apartment, echoing off the sterile white walls and the clinical smell of hospital-grade soap still lingering on your skin.
You pressed your palm over the name like you could smudge it away.
But red ink never fades. It brands.
It condemns.
A red soulmate mark.
You had seen the pamphlets before—those rare anomalies that happen once in a few hundred thousand people.
The ones born defective, the ones whose soulmates were already claimed by someone else.
Fated to ache. Fated to long. Fated to never be loved back.
You always thought it was tragic in a distant, abstract sort of way.
Until now.
Until it was his name.
Until it was Zayne.
Your Zayne.
Your friend. Your colleague.
The man who offered you coffee the day you transferred, when everyone else couldn’t be bothered to remember your name.
The one who knew when your hands shook after a 12-hour surgery and would silently leave your favorite chocolate mousse in the breakroom fridge.
The one who walked you home after night shifts, even though his apartment was one floor above yours.
The one you tried not to love.
You tried.
God, you tried.
Because his mark had already appeared months ago—in black. Like it was supposed to. Permanent. True. Undeniable.
You remembered how he told you.
How he looked almost dazed, fingers brushing over his skin like he couldn’t believe he was lucky enough to find her.
You had smiled. You had said you were happy for him. You had even helped him pick out a gift for their anniversary.
And maybe you were happy.
A small, pure part of you had been.
But the rest of you was bleeding.
But you didn’t expect this.
You didn’t expect the universe to be so cruel.
Because months later, your body chose him.
As if fate wanted to mock you.
As if it wanted you to watch him belong to someone else, forever just one floor above you, one breath out of reach.
Red meant doomed.
Red meant defect.
Red meant you would love someone who was never yours to begin with.
Your fingers trembled as you traced over the ink again.
You imagined what it would feel like to show him.
To watch his face crumble, or worse—pity you. To be told, gently and with unbearable softness, that he loved someone else.
That his heart already belonged to the woman whose name was etched into his skin in perfect, black permanence.
You would never be that name.
You would never be enough.
So you rolled down your sleeve and turned away from the mirror.
The name still burned beneath the fabric.
And in the quiet of your room, you allowed yourself to break—silently, like you always did.
Because even the stars knew.
You were never meant to be loved.
Only to love.
—•
Day by day, you saw him.
In break rooms and bustling hallways, beside you during rounds, across you during late-night debriefs.
He was always there—smiling softly, offering you coffee in the way only he knew you liked it.
Asking about your day with that quiet warmth that made your chest ache.
He never noticed the way your fingers twitched when you took the cup.
Never saw how you always kept your sleeves pulled just a little too low.
Never questioned the stiffness in your smile.
It had been months.
You had become an expert at hiding the truth—an actress in your own life, wearing ease like armor.
You laughed when he teased you.
Teased him back when he tried to guess your soulmate’s identity.
“He probably doesn’t live around here,” you’d say with a light shrug, the same one you’d perfected in the mirror.
And he’d nod, gentle and non-intrusive, never the type to pry.
And maybe that made it worse.
That he was kind.
That he was always kind.
His soulmate didn’t make things any easier either.
She was bright, and sweet, and unbearably thoughtful. The kind of person you couldn’t bring yourself to hate, even if it would make surviving this easier.
She brought you takeout after long shifts, remembered your favorite boba order, got you a little potted plant for your birthday and left a sticky note on your locker that read, “For when life gets too sterile.”
Just like now.
You sit quietly at your desk, the hospital gone still with night, overhead lights buzzing low.
The sky outside is a deep, velvet black, rain tapping gently against the window.
She hums softly as she unpacks the sushi she brought, setting it out like you were her little sister she needed to fuss over.
“You need to eat properly,” she scolds, her voice warm, mothering.
You smile up at her, gratitude in your eyes.
You mean it. You really do.
Even as your wrist pulses beneath your sleeve—raw, restless, unbearably red.
Even as your soul screams a name it can never say aloud.
You thank her.
You eat.
And you pretend not to feel the burn.
“Any luck yet?” she asks gently, nodding toward your wrist as she takes a sip of water.
You follow her gaze, pulse ticking beneath the fabric, and force a smile that doesn’t quite reach your eyes.
“No,” you say, voice light, practiced. “Maybe I’m just destined to be alone.”
A half-truth.
The kind that slips out easily when the full one is too cruel to name.
Because what could you say?
That the name on your wrist has been there for months?
That it burns with a devotion that will never be returned?
That it’s his name—her soulmate’s name—written in red?
That while she buys you dinner and worries over your health, your heart quietly bleeds for the man who kisses her forehead and saves his smiles for her?
So instead, you say nothing.
You stir the soy sauce into your rice and let the lie settle between you—gentle, unspoken, and unbearable.
She offers you a sympathetic smile, her voice soft with well-meaning hope.
“You’ll meet him someday.”
And there it is.
The ache.
Low and sharp, blooming beneath your ribs like something cruel and familiar.
You nod, because it’s easier than telling the truth.
Because she’s looking at you with such kindness, such sincerity—never realizing that her comfort is the wound.
She doesn’t know.
She can’t.
That you’ve already met him.
That he’s just down the hall, finishing up his reports, waiting to walk her home.
That the universe gave you a name and then watched you unravel.
So you smile again.
The kind that feels more like a wince.
“Yeah,” you whisper. “Maybe.”
—•
“I’ll see you around, Y/N.”
She smiles, radiant and unaware, her arm wrapped easily around his as the two of you stand face to face.
Your mark flares beneath your sleeve, a slow, burning throb that pulls your eyes to where her hand rests—light, familiar, right—against his.
And Zayne—
He looks down at her like she hung the stars.
With that quiet kind of fondness that once lived in his gaze for you, before the universe chose to remind you of your place.
Before the mark.
Before everything changed.
He told you once, in passing, how they met.
At a park. A lost puppy.
He’d helped her look for it, stayed with her until it was found. Said it felt ordinary. Nothing sparked then.
Not until a week later, when her name bloomed black on his wrist.
You remember the way his voice softened when he said it.
“Shaiya.”
Like it meant something holy.
Like it made sense.
You had smiled back then too.
And you do it again now, a practiced expression, polished by months of pretending.
“Yeah,” you say, voice steady. “See you.”
She waves, content.
Zayne glances at you, just for a second—just long enough for your heart to betray you.
Then they turn.
And you’re left behind.
As always.
Your mark burns again as you watch them walk away—slow, steady, inseparable.
It always flares like this when you start to ache for him.
When you let yourself want him, even for a moment.
As if fate itself is reprimanding you.
As if the pain is a reminder: You were never meant to be his.
Just a defect. A flaw in the system.
But you ignore it.
You’ve learned how to live with fire under your skin.
Instead, you cling to the memories—the ones that feel softer in hindsight, even if they hurt now.
“I hope your name appears on my wrist someday,” he’d said once, offhandedly, turning his head to glance at you with a quiet smile.
You had laughed, heart skipping despite yourself.
“If I was your soulmate, you’d probably end up with a headache from dealing with me.”
It was meant as a joke. Lighthearted.
But now—
Now, it tastes like irony.
Because it did appear.
Your name did show up.
Just not where it was supposed to.
Not on him.
—•
You didn’t quite know how you ended up here.
Maybe it was the silence of your apartment. Maybe it was the way your wrist still throbbed beneath your sleeve like a wound that wouldn’t close.
Or maybe—just maybe—you were tired of pretending you were okay.
So you found yourself in a dimly lit pub, the kind where no one asked questions and the music was low enough to disappear into.
You sat near the bar, shoulders hunched in a way you hadn’t noticed until your reflection caught you in the mirror.
One hand wrapped loosely around a glass of whiskey, the other idly pushing ice cubes in lazy circles.
“Here’s to unrequited love,” you mutter to no one, raising your glass like a toast to the cruel stars above.
You take a slow sip. Let the burn settle in your throat. Let yourself feel it—just for tonight.
Then—
A scent. Sharp. Clean.
Masculine and strangely grounding, like rain on stone.
It hits you all at once.
And before you can turn, an arm slides across the bar beside you—unhurried, confident.
He settles into the stool next to yours like it was always meant to be his.
You catch a glimpse.
White—no, silver—hair catches the low light. Almost too perfect. Almost otherworldly.
“Gin. On the rocks,” he says, voice low and smooth, like smoke rolling over velvet.
You glance at him, just for a moment.
And somehow, you felt drawn.
You let your gaze drift to the stranger beside you, curiosity outweighing caution.
He was striking in a way that demanded attention—dangerous, almost.
Red eyes, sharp and unflinching, stared ahead with the kind of focus that made the world seem like background noise to him.
His hair was a mess of white-silver strands, tousled and unruly, falling just above his brows like they had been kissed by moonlight.
And his mouth—curved in an easy, knowing smirk—looked as though it had never forgotten how to charm.
As if he was always just about to say something wicked.
There was an ease in the way he occupied the space, like he wasn’t merely sitting at the bar—but claiming it.
You stared a beat too long.
And then—
A sharp sting.
Your mark flared beneath your sleeve, searing hot.
You flinched, barely, teeth gritting as the pain sliced through the moment like glass.
Of course.
Even now—even with someone like him sitting beside you—the universe couldn’t let you forget.
You were still branded.
Still trapped.
Still hopelessly tethered to someone who would never be yours.
And the burn beneath your skin felt like fate laughing.
You cursed under your breath, the word slipping out low and bitter as the sting pulsed through your wrist like a cruel reminder.
You took another sip, letting the whiskey scorch its way down, hoping it would dull something—anything.
It didn’t.
Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed him shift.
The stranger turned his head slightly, just enough for those crimson eyes to find you.
There was something unreadable in his gaze—sharp, deliberate.
Not surprised. Not amused.
Just… intrigued.
“Rough night?” he asked, voice low and laced with dry amusement.
You didn’t answer right away.
Just stared into your glass, watching the ice crack quietly beneath the amber.
“Something like that,” you muttered, not looking at him.
But he didn’t look away.
And somehow, you felt seen.
Not pitied. Not judged. Just… noticed.
Like maybe, for the first time in a long while, someone wasn’t looking through you.
He chuckles, a low, rough sound that wraps around the edges of your exhaustion like velvet trimmed in iron.
“Same here,” he murmurs, raising his glass in a mock salute before taking a slow sip of his gin.
There’s a beat of silence.
Then—“I’m Sylus,” he says, turning slightly to face you now.
There’s something in the way he says it—easy, but deliberate. Like his name is a secret he only offers to a select few. Like he’s giving you a choice. To take it or don’t.
You glance at him again.
That silver hair, those red eyes. The quiet confidence that radiates off him in waves.
He doesn’t ask for your name.
He just waits.
And for reasons you don’t fully understand, you give it.
“Y/N,” you say quietly, your voice barely above the clink of glass and the murmur of conversations behind you.
Sylus nods, as if the name fits. As if he already knew.
“Nice to meet you, Y/N,” he says, and somehow, it doesn’t feel empty.
Somehow, it feels like the night has started over.
You blink slowly, eyes fixed on the amber swirl in your glass.
“All my nights are rough,” you murmur, your lips curving into a tired, self-deprecating smile. “Not just this one.”
You take another sip, let the warmth settle into your bones like armor.
Beside you, Sylus raises a brow—curious, maybe, but respectful. He doesn’t ask. Doesn’t press.
And somehow, that’s more comforting than if he had.
So you both sit there, shoulder to shoulder, in a silence that feels oddly natural.
Not forced. Not heavy.
Just… there.
The sting on your wrist begins to fade, slowly—like a held breath finally exhaled.
Maybe it’s the alcohol.
Maybe it’s his presence.
Maybe it’s just that for once, you don’t feel so unbearably alone.
A sudden courage bubbles up—liquid and reckless.
You keep your eyes forward, voice casual.
“What do you think of people with red marks?”
You feel him glance your way.
There’s a pause. Barely a second. But in it, something passes—something unsaid.
He seems a little surprised by the question, but his expression remains unchanged. Calm. Measured.
“I wouldn’t know,” he says after a sip of his gin. “Mine’s never shown.”
He shrugs like it means nothing. Like fate hasn’t touched him at all.
And somehow, you envy that.
“Good for you,” you say, a little too flat, a little too bitter around the edges.
A beat of silence follows.
Then—a chuckle, low and quiet, rumbles from his chest.
Not mocking. Not cruel.
Just… amused.
Knowing.
“Interesting,” is all he says.
The word lingers between you, heavier than it should be.
Like he’s already pieced something together. Like he sees more than you intended to show.
You don’t look at him, but you feel his presence beside you—steady, unbothered.
As if your pain isn’t a burden here.
As if your broken pieces don’t make you harder to hold, only more worth noticing.
And for the first time in a long time, your chest doesn’t feel so tight.
He reaches into his coat pocket and pulls out a small piece of paper and a pen—moves smooth, unhurried.
You watch as he scribbles something down, his handwriting sharp and elegant, like everything about him.
Then he slides it across the bar toward you, the paper curling slightly at the corners as it stops in front of your glass.
He doesn’t look at you right away—just takes another sip of his gin, eyes still trained on the bottles lined across the shelves.
“I am fully aware of stranger danger,” he drawls, the faintest smirk tugging at his lips, “but do call if you need… company.”
His voice lingers on the last word, smoky and deliberate.
Not suggestive.
Not empty.
Just a quiet offering from one broken night to another.
You glance down at the number.
It looks oddly out of place between your fingers—this small, absurd lifeline.
But it’s there.
And so is he.
You give a small, tired smile, the kind that doesn’t reach your eyes but feels a little more genuine than the others tonight.
“Maybe I will,” you say, tucking the slip of paper between your fingers like a secret.
He doesn’t respond, but there’s a glint in his crimson eyes as he raises his glass, as if to toast to unspoken things.
To bruised hearts.
To broken fates.
To strangers who feel a little less like strangers.
You both drink in silence after that, letting the night bleed slow and quiet around you.
No questions. No confessions.
Just the comfort of existing beside someone who doesn’t ask you to pretend.
When you finally step back into your apartment, the stillness greets you like an old friend.
Familiar. Too familiar.
You loosen your coat, kick off your shoes, and sit at the edge of your bed, the quiet pressing in.
The mark on your wrist is calm now—dormant, for once.
You pull the slip of paper from your pocket, smoothing the crease with your thumb.
Sylus.
You murmur the name to yourself, letting it linger in the dark.
As if, maybe this time, fate might finally listen.
—•
You sigh, long and weary, as you sink into your desk chair.
Every part of you aches—your back, your hands, your mind.
Eight hours in the operating room, eight hours of focus and tension and the weight of someone else’s life resting in your palms.
You close your eyes for a moment, letting the silence wrap around you.
Then—
A knock at the door.
Soft. Familiar.
Before you can even answer, it opens just enough to let him in.
Zayne.
His dark hair falls slightly into his hazel-green eyes, coat still dusted with rain from outside.
He walks in with quiet purpose, holding out a paper cup—your usual coffee order, still warm.
“Long day?” he asks, voice calm and steady, like always.
Your chest tightens.
And then it comes—the burn.
That same, awful heat radiating from your wrist, seeping into your bones.
You clench your jaw, forcing a tired smile as you take the cup from him.
“Thanks,” you murmur, hoping your fingers don’t brush too long against his.
He doesn’t notice the wince you try to hide.
Doesn’t see how tightly you’re holding your sleeve.
Because to him, it’s just kindness.
To you, it’s agony.
You both sit in silence, the kind that would feel companionable if it didn’t ache so much.
The coffee sits warm between your hands, grounding you in the moment—keeping you from unraveling.
Then he speaks.
“I saw you out two nights ago.”
His tone is casual, but there’s something underneath it—curiosity, maybe. Concern, even.
You glance at him.
He doesn’t look at you. Just takes a sip from his own cup, as if the words don’t mean much.
“Were you drinking again?”
You pause, fingers tightening slightly around the paper cup.
The truth sits heavy on your tongue, bitter and unspoken.
You look down at your wrist, still hidden beneath your sleeve, the phantom sting of the mark pulsing like a second heartbeat.
So many things you could say.
Yes. Because pretending I’m fine all the time is exhausting.
Because I watched you walk away with her again and smiled like it didn’t kill me.
Because my mark won’t stop burning, and I don’t know how to live with this kind of love.
But instead, you offer a small shrug.
“Just needed some air,” you say quietly. “That’s all.”
A lie.
But it’s one he won’t press.
Because he trusts you.
Because he doesn’t know.
He gives you that small, familiar smile—the one that always undoes you more than it should.
“Don’t overwork yourself,” he says softly, like it’s second nature to worry about you.
Then he turns, footsteps fading down the hallway, leaving you with the smell of coffee, the echo of his voice, and the quiet devastation he’ll never see.
Your fingers curl around the cup.
Tight. Too tight.
As if holding on to something will keep you from breaking.
But your mark burns hotter now, searing through your skin like punishment.
As if it’s angry.
As if it’s jealous.
And for a moment, you wonder why it hasn’t bled.
Why it doesn’t just split open and spill all this hurt onto the floor where everyone can finally see it.
“Stop being so kind to me,” you whisper into the silence, your voice shaking.
But there’s no one left to hear it.
Only the sterile hum of the lights overhead, and the sound of your heart breaking—quiet and familiar—as tears trace down your cheeks, uninvited and unstoppable.
Somehow, without really thinking, you found yourself at his doorstep.
The city was quiet, the air cool against your cheeks, your coat clutched tight around you like it could hold the pieces of you together.
Your wrist still ached beneath your sleeve, raw and restless, but you had long since stopped trying to soothe it.
Sylus had texted you the address after your call—short, clipped, and straightforward, like him.
And now you’re here, standing in front of a door you never expected to seek out, uncertain of what you’re hoping to find on the other side.
Healing?
Distraction?
A place where your mark doesn’t matter?
You raise your hand to knock, hesitating for a moment as your breath fogs in the cold.
Then, before you can lose the nerve, your knuckles meet wood.
One. Two. Three quiet raps.
A pause.
Then the door clicks open.
And there he is—Sylus.
Silver hair a little messier than usual, a glass still in his hand, red eyes sharp but softer than you’ve ever seen them.
No questions. No judgment.
—•
He didn’t say a word.
Just nodded once, slow and understanding, and led you inside.
Now, the two of you sit on opposite ends of his worn leather couch, a respectful distance apart, the fire crackling gently between you like a heartbeat neither of you wants to claim.
The room is dim, shadows dancing along the walls, the only light coming from the flicker of flames and the occasional glint in Sylus’s eyes when he turns his head slightly to look at you—then away again.
You’re still.
Tired.
The kind of tired that no sleep could ever fix.
The tears have long since dried, leaving behind the familiar hollow ache in your chest, like grief carved a space in your ribs and decided to stay.
And your mark—
Still there.
Still burning beneath your skin.
You stare into the fire, your hands loosely clasped in your lap, and for the first time in days, you breathe—slow, deep, and unguarded.
Sylus doesn’t speak.
Doesn’t pry.
He just sits there, presence steady, like a wall you can finally lean against without fear of collapsing.
And in that silence, something shifts.
Not healed. Not whole.
But a little less alone.
You turn your head slightly, eyes drifting from the fire to him. His profile is lit in warm gold—sharp, unreadable, but not unkind.
“Sorry,” you say softly, the word catching at the edges of your throat.
For what exactly, you’re not sure.
For showing up. For falling apart.
For being the kind of person who calls a near-stranger because no one else feels safe anymore.
He doesn’t flinch. Doesn’t turn to look at you.
Just gives a small shrug and takes a slow sip from his glass.
“It’s good company,” he replies, casual, like it’s nothing.
Like you aren’t a burden.
Like this—the silence, the ache, the weight of everything you can’t say—is somehow welcome.
You exhale quietly, some small part of your heart unclenching.
Maybe that’s what you needed.
Not comfort. Not words.
Just someone who doesn’t mind the quiet, even when it’s heavy.
“I can understand.”
His voice breaks the stillness, low and quiet—almost like an afterthought, but it sinks deep.
Your eyes dart to him.
Sylus is still facing the fire, his expression unreadable, the flames dancing across the sharp lines of his face.
“I love someone,” he says, slowly, deliberately. “But her name isn’t on my wrist.”
He takes a sip of his drink, his fingers steady around the glass.
“There’s another name on hers.”
The words hang in the air like smoke—soft, but heavy with weight.
And suddenly, you understand why his silence felt so familiar. Why he never asked questions. Why he didn’t flinch at your pain.
Because he knows.
He knows what it’s like to love without being chosen.
To look at someone and see a future they’ll never see with you.
To exist in the quiet spaces between their laughter—wanted, but not meant.
You swallow hard, the ache in your chest mirroring his.
Your voice is barely a whisper.
“Does she know?”
A pause.
“No,” he murmurs. “And I’m not sure I want her to.”
And for a moment, you’re not two strangers on a couch.
You’re two people clinging to the same kind of hurt.
And somehow, that makes it just a little easier to breathe.
“How does it work?” you ask, barely above a whisper.
Your eyes stay fixed on the fire, but your voice trembles with something deeper—something raw.
“Love. How does it work?”
There’s a pause.
Sylus doesn’t answer right away. He sets his glass down on the table, the faint clink of glass on wood echoing in the quiet.
You finally glance at him.
He’s staring into the flames, brows drawn slightly, as if the question has rooted itself somewhere inside him.
“I don’t think it does,” he says at last, voice low and unfiltered. “Not the way we’re told it should.”
His gaze flicks to you, slow and steady.
“Everyone talks about fate. About destiny. About names on skin and inevitability.”
He leans back, resting an arm on the back of the couch, red eyes glinting.
“But love—it’s messy. It’s inconvenient. It doesn’t follow rules or timing or marks.”
You swallow, something stirring painfully in your chest.
“Then why does it still hurt this much?” you whisper.
He looks at you for a long moment. Not with pity, but with understanding so deep it feels like a balm.
“Because you love honestly,” he says. “And honest love never goes unpunished.”
“I just want it to stop burning,” you whisper, the words escaping before you can take them back.
You’re not looking at him—your gaze stays fixed on the fire, on the flicker and hiss of flame. It’s easier than meeting his eyes.
“It’s not the unrequited part,” you continue, voice low and frayed at the edges. “I always knew it would be like this. I never expected anything more from him.”
You inhale shakily, pressing your hands tighter around your knees as if that could steady the tremble in your chest.
“But the mark—it burns every time I think of him. Every time I miss him, want him, remember him.”
The heat isn’t just under your skin. It’s inside your lungs, your throat, your heart.
A fire that reminds you with every spark that your love is a mistake written in red.
“I just want it to stop hurting every time I feel something.”
A quiet hush follows, broken only by the crackling of the fire.
Then, Sylus speaks. His voice is softer than you’ve ever heard it.
“Love shouldn’t feel like a wound,” he says.
You glance at him. And for once, there’s no teasing in his expression. No smirk, no defense. Just something quiet. Something honest.
“And yet,” you murmur, “it always does.”
He doesn’t offer easy comfort. Doesn’t pretend to have answers.
Instead, he leans back, watching the flames for a moment.
“Maybe,” he says slowly, “the pain won’t go away completely. But it can dull. If you let someone help carry it.”
Your chest tightens, but this time, it’s not from the burn.
It’s from the way he says it. Like he means it.
Like he would.
He steps toward you—unhurried, deliberate. The firelight flickers across his face, catching the sharp lines of his jaw, the glint in his crimson eyes.
“I may not know you,” he says slowly, voice low and steady, “but I know your pain.”
His words settle over you like a weighted blanket—not too heavy, not too light. Just enough to be felt.
Then—
He extends a hand.
Open.
Unassuming.
Offered without expectation.
Not to fix you.
Not to save you.
Just to stand with you in the wreckage.
You stare at it for a moment, your breath caught between resistance and the aching need for something—someone—to anchor you.
And somehow, in the quiet of that moment, it doesn’t matter that he’s a stranger.
Because pain recognizes pain.
And for the first time in a long while… you don’t feel alone in it.
You hesitate—just for a breath—then slip your hand into his.
His grip is firm, warm, steady.
He pulls you gently to your feet, the motion smooth, careful, as though you might break if he moved too fast.
And then—
The mark flares.
A sharp, scalding pain radiates up your arm, and you flinch, breath hitching as the heat sinks into your bones like fire licking at old wounds.
But before you can pull away, his arms are around you. Solid. Certain. Anchoring.
“Let it burn for a bit,” he murmurs, voice close, low, and rough with something almost tender.
Then he guides your head to his chest, where his heartbeat drums slow and steady beneath your ear.
No rush. No pressure. Just presence.
And in that quiet, flickering room—with the fire crackling, your heart aching, and his arms holding you like a promise—
you let it burn.
—•
“Y/N? Are you listening?”
The sharp snap of fingers in front of your face jolts you back to the present.
You blink, startled, eyes locking onto Shaiya’s concerned expression across the table. Her brows are slightly furrowed, lips tugged into a gentle frown.
You’d drifted again.
Your thoughts had wandered—slipped away from her words, from the crowded café, from the clatter of cups and the warmth of the sun spilling through the window.
You were thinking about him.
About Sylus.
About how his arms had felt around you.
How steady his heartbeat was.
How you let yourself lean in, even when the mark warmed beneath your skin like a quiet warning.
“Sorry,” you murmur, straightening in your seat. “I was… thinking.”
Shaiya softens, letting out a small sigh as she reaches for her drink.
“You’ve been spacing out a lot lately,” she says gently, not accusing—just noticing.
You force a small smile, fingers curling around your mug to hide the slight tremble.
If only she knew who you were thinking of.
And how much it wasn’t her soulmate.
“Just… soulmate,” you blurt, the word tumbling out before you can catch it.
Your heart stutters in your chest the moment you say it, the regret immediate and sharp.
Shaiya’s face lights up, eyes wide with surprise and sudden excitement.
Her hands nearly drop her fork, and she leans in, voice hushed but eager.
“Did you find him?” she asks, a hopeful smile blooming across her face.
You freeze.
There’s a second—a split, breathless second—where the truth rises in your throat like a wave.
That yes, you found him.
That it’s not a matter of who, but how painful it’s been.
That his name is carved in red into your skin.
And that her name is written on his.
But you don’t say any of that.
You just force a smile, one you hope doesn’t look too broken at the edges.
“Not exactly,” you say softly. “It’s complicated.”
How do you explain being loved—held—by someone who might be more than a stranger… but isn’t quite fate?
Suddenly, an arm wraps around your shoulders—casual, confident—and your breath catches in your throat.
The scent hits you first. That same sharp, clean cologne.
Then the warmth.
Then the voice.
“Why don’t you just tell her you did?” he drawls, low and unbothered, his tone laced with a kind of amused defiance that only he could make sound like an invitation.
Your heart stumbles.
You turn your head slowly and catch the now-familiar glint of white hair falling just over crimson eyes that look too pleased with themselves for someone who walked into your unraveling.
Sylus.
Of course it’s him.
You’re frozen, stunned, as your mark flares beneath your sleeve—burning a little brighter, a little wilder, as if it recognizes the chaos he’s just dropped into.
Shaiya’s eyes widen as she looks between the two of you.
“Oh,” she breathes, lips parting in surprise. “Is this…?”
And still, Sylus doesn’t move his arm.
He just smirks.
And you—
You can’t decide if you want to run, scream, or lean into him and let the world burn.
Sylus doesn’t miss a beat.
He gives a small, deliberate nod, his expression unreadable but his voice smooth as silk.
“Yes,” he says calmly. “I’m Y/N’s soulmate.”
The words land like a strike of lightning.
Shaiya freezes, her eyes wide, mouth parting in shock as she looks at him—then to you—then back again, like her mind is trying to catch up with the reality laid out in front of her.
You feel the burn instantly—sharp, searing, a violent protest beneath your skin.
Your mark is screaming.
But you smile anyway.
You lie through the pain like you’ve always done.
With practiced ease, you reach for Sylus’s arm, pulling him down to sit beside you.
His body is warm beside yours, grounding and steady in a way that only makes the burn worse.
“Yeah,” you say, your voice soft, your lips curled into a sheepish smile. “We’ve been… keeping it quiet.”
Shaiya blinks, still stunned, still searching your face for some confirmation that she hasn’t stepped into a dream.
You glance at Sylus, who is already watching you with something unreadable in his gaze.
And all you can do is smile.
Even as your wrist burns like a brand.
Even as your heart threatens to give out beneath the weight of the lie.
Because in this moment—right here, right now—you just wanted to be chosen, even if it was a lie.
“Oh, that’s great! How did you guys meet?” Shaiya beams, already clutching your hands in excitement.
You glance toward Sylus, your heart a tangled mess of gratitude and quiet devastation.
He smirks faintly, unbothered.
“At a bar,” he says smoothly. “She toasted to unrequited love.”
You laugh softly, a breath too close to breaking.
“Yeah,” you say, eyes on him. “And he didn’t walk away.”
Shaiya claps her hands, practically glowing.
“Oh, I have to tell Zayne!” she exclaims, already pulling out her phone.
Your breath catches.
You stare at her, helpless, your pulse thudding in your ears.
There’s a flicker of panic—of heartbreak—just beneath the surface.
And then you feel it.
Sylus’s hand, warm and steady, closing over yours.
Silent. Certain. There.
You glance at him, and he doesn’t say anything—just holds your gaze, letting you borrow his strength.
So you smile.
Small. Fragile.
But real.
Even as the pain coils in your chest and your mark burns beneath your sleeve like a wound that won’t heal.
After the café, Shaiya darted off, excitement practically radiating from her as she called over her shoulder about celebrating soon.
You could only wave, sheepishly, watching her disappear into the crowd.
Beside you, Sylus chuckled, that familiar, low sound that always managed to cut through your thoughts.
You turned to him, brows furrowed, voice soft.
“Why?”
He glanced down at you, completely unfazed, and shrugged.
“Would you rather people think you were lonely for the rest of your life?” he asked, smirking. “Because you were giving off tragic energy.”
You rolled your eyes, but couldn’t help the small, reluctant smile tugging at your lips.
—•
A week passed.
And somehow, Sylus was everywhere.
In the hospital lobby, leaning against walls like he belonged there.
In the café line beside you, pretending it was coincidence.
On your lunch break, slipping you your favorite pastry like it was nothing.
You didn’t complain.
Even when your mark burned with every glance, every word, every moment spent too close.
Because his presence—while painful—was constant. Steady. Like a shield between you and everything else you couldn’t bear to face alone.
Now, you were in your office, signing off reports, when the door creaked open.
Zayne.
You looked up, startled, your eyes meeting his. His expression was unreadable, but there was something there—something frayed at the edges.
Conflicted.
Still, for the first time in what felt like forever, you smiled at him.
Your mark responded immediately, pulsing beneath your sleeve.
“I heard from Shaiya,” he said, voice calm, measured. “You finally found him?”
You nodded, sheepish. “Yeah.”
He opens his mouth—stops. Looks at you.
“That’s… good,” he finishes, but it lands flat. Like he meant something else. Like he almost said it.
You ask, carefully, “Is everything okay?”
He nods. Smiles. Too polite.
“Yes. I’m just… glad.”
And as he turns to leave, your mark pulses—not from yearning this time, but from something worse, realization.
You’re left in the quiet hum of your office, with the sting of your mark flaring and a new ache settling deep in your chest.
Because this time, it wasn’t just unrequited.
It was almost.
Sylus enters not long after, silent as ever.
The room doesn’t announce him—he simply is, like a shadow slipping into light.
His eyes find you instantly.
You expect the usual smirk, the dry remark perched on his lips.
But instead—
He just looks at you.
And something in his expression softens.
Like all the sharp edges of him have momentarily dulled.
Like seeing you—tired, unraveling, still trying to hold it together—matters.
He doesn’t say a word.
He doesn’t need to.
“Why was he looking at me like that?” you ask, your voice cracking under the weight of it.
The question isn’t really for Sylus, but he hears it anyway.
It slips out before you can stop it—raw, unguarded, aching.
You’re not sure what hurts more.
The look in Zayne’s eyes, or the fact that it came too late.
Too late, when you’d already chosen to pretend.
Too late, when someone else had stepped in to hold you through the burn.
Sylus doesn’t answer right away.
He just steps closer, his gaze steady—never pitying.
“Because,” he says softly, “he’s starting to see what he never let himself feel.”
And the worst part is… you’re not sure that changes anything.
“That’s worse,” you whisper, the words breaking as they leave you. “That means he knew.”
The realization crashes over you like a wave—sharp, cold, merciless.
All this time.
All those quiet moments.
All the silence between your smiles.
He knew—and still chose someone else.
The first tear slips down your cheek before you can stop it, then another, and suddenly you’re unraveling—slow, quiet, but completely.
And without a second’s hesitation, Sylus is beside you.
No questions. No hesitation.
Just arms around you, solid and warm, pulling you into him like he’s done this before—like he knows this pain.
You bury your face in his chest as the sobs come, muffled and broken, and he holds you tighter.
One hand in your hair, the other against your back, grounding you.
“I’ve got you,” he murmurs.
And for once, you believe it.
You look up at him, eyes glassy, voice trembling.
“That means he had a choice,” you whisper. “That the soulmate mark… meant nothing.”
The words feel heavy in your mouth, bitter and raw.
Because if Zayne knew—if he saw your love and still turned away—then the mark wasn’t fate.
It was just a cruel joke.
Something to cling to while he chose someone else.
Sylus holds your gaze, his own expression unreadable for a moment—quiet, intense.
Then he speaks, voice low and steady.
“It means the mark doesn’t make the choice. We do.”
He brushes a tear from your cheek with his thumb, gentle in a way that undoes you.
“And he didn’t choose you,” he adds, soft but honest.
“But I would.”
You choke on a breath, barely able to speak past the lump in your throat.
“But you… you don’t have a mark. Not yet.”
Your voice wavers, caught between disbelief and something dangerously close to hope.
Sylus doesn’t flinch.
Instead, a faint smirk tugs at the corner of his lips—wry, almost sad.
“I had mine removed,” he says, like it’s nothing. Like it didn’t once cost him something.
“Years ago.”
You blink, stunned. “Why?”
His gaze lingers on you, softer now.
“Because I didn’t want fate to decide who I could love.”
Then, quieter—just for you:
“I wanted the choice to be mine.”
“Then… the girl,” you murmur, barely above a breath. “The one you loved…”
Your voice falters, unsure if you want to know the rest. But the question hangs there between you, fragile and trembling.
Sylus’s eyes dim slightly, the usual spark giving way to something quieter—something older.
“She never chose me,” he says, his voice low, steady. “Even before the mark showed up, I think I knew.”
He exhales through his nose, gaze drifting somewhere distant.
“And when it finally appeared,” he continues, “I already made a choice.”
The silence that follows is heavy, but not suffocating.
You feel it—the familiar sting of being almost enough.
And as he looks back at you, something in your chest eases.
Not because the pain is gone.
But because he understands.
You wanted to feel happy.
Wanted to let Sylus’s words wrap around you, ease the ache, soften the hollow in your chest.
But the mark burned—sharp and relentless—like it knew you were trying to let go.
Like it refused to be ignored.
A cruel reminder that no matter how gently Sylus held you, no matter how steady his presence or how kind his eyes—
your heart still belonged somewhere else.
To someone who never asked for it.
And never wanted it.
And that was the worst part.
Because for once, someone was choosing you.
And still, some part of you couldn’t stop choosing him.
Sylus watched you quietly, his gaze lingering not on your tears, not on your mark, but on you—the part of you that still hadn’t healed.
He saw the way your fingers twitched, the way your eyes dropped to the floor like you were ashamed of your own heart.
And then, softly—gently—he spoke.
“I know,” he said. “You don’t have to choose me now.”
No pressure. No expectation.
Just understanding.
Because he knew what it was like to love someone who couldn’t let go of someone else.
And still, he stayed.
Not to replace. Not to compete.
But simply to be there.
You didn’t say anything.
You just leaned into him.
And Sylus opened his arms without a word, holding you like he’d been waiting—like he knew you would break again, and he’d already decided he’d be the one to catch you.
You let yourself cry.
Not the quiet, hidden kind, but the raw, aching sobs that shook your shoulders and spilled everything you’d been trying to bury.
He didn’t flinch.
He didn’t pull away.
He just held you.
Steady. Solid. Safe.
And in his arms, for the first time in a long while, you let yourself feel it all.
—•
You stared up at the white ceiling, its endless blankness strangely comforting.
Sterile. Still. Silent.
The soft, steady beep of the machine beside you was the only sound in the room, each pulse reminding you that time was still moving forward, even if part of you hadn’t caught up yet.
It had been three months.
Three months since you stood in front of Zayne and smiled through your breaking heart.
Three months since Sylus stepped into your life with his sharp words and soft hands and gave you something you didn’t know you needed—space to fall apart.
Three months since everything changed.
And Sylus never left.
Not once.
He stayed through the confusion, through the aching nights when you couldn’t sleep and the mornings when the mark burned so violently you thought it might consume you.
He was there when you made the decision—tired, trembling—to pack your things and leave it all behind.
Zayne.
The hospital that held too many memories.
The city that never stopped reminding you of what you couldn’t have.
You moved somewhere quieter.
Somewhere you could breathe.
And now you were here—lying on a padded bed in a clean, white room, moments away from erasing the mark that had defined you for far too long.
You weren’t doing it to forget him.
You weren’t doing it out of spite.
You were doing it to reclaim your skin.
To stop punishing yourself for loving too much.
To stop letting fate write a story you never agreed to.
There was fear, yes—lingering at the edges of your thoughts like a shadow.
But there was peace, too.
Because this time, the choice was yours.
And just beyond the clinic door, waiting in the hallway like he always did, was Sylus.
Waiting—not to save you.
Just to be there when you returned. Whole. Scarred. Free.
The procedure wasn’t just to erase ink from your skin.
It was to quiet the fire.
To silence the part of you that still, after everything, ached for Zayne.
The part that stirred when you heard his voice in a memory, that still wondered what if, even when you knew the answer.
At first, you were afraid.
Afraid of what you’d lose.
Afraid that without the burn, without the mark, you might feel nothing—or worse, that the emptiness would linger.
But then you thought of him.
Of Sylus.
Of how he stayed when he had every reason not to.
Of the way he never asked you to love him, only to let him stand beside you.
And somehow, that gave you strength.
You closed your eyes, letting out a slow, shaking breath as the doctors moved around you.
The bed shifted beneath you as they began to wheel you away, the lights overhead passing in soft, distant flickers.
You didn’t cry.
You didn’t look back.
But just before you crossed into the next room, you whispered it—soft, steady, final.
“Goodbye, Zayne.”
And this time, you meant it.
Okay, I need to tell on myself...I still have these boxes from the Catch-22 event 😭 😭 I still can't decide and idk if I ever will
Bonus
Like what do you want me to do with this??? 😭
Okay, let's go action star! Yes, I will absolutely jump out of helicopters with you with only your tie to hold onto, no questions asked ❤️
Expedition 33 is an actual masterpiece???
Genuinely only found out about it because of Ben Starr, but wow, my jrpg roots are so happy right now. My Legend of Dragoon obsessed self finally getting a turn-based rpg with timed attacks, this fighting system is like the upgraded version of that? So satisfying (except parry, I'm so bad at parry omg 😭)
Right from the beginning I'm so emotionally affected by all these characters, that melancholy and optimism and just humanity, it hurts so good, y'all really wanted me crying in the first 20 minutes. The actors are doing amazing. And I don't even have to talk about how beautiful a game it is, the art speaks for itself, I keep walking around in the environments just admiring the scenery. The music is so haunting and gorgeous, it's like a whole feast.
Agggh, I'm so pleased. Cannot wait to continue the story and find out what is really going on cause I keep coming up with crackpot FF type theories about gods and a struggle for control of the world (actually I was theorizing the Paintress has a mind parasite or someone forcing her to do it, but I'm literally pulling it out of thin air cause I'm not far into the game at all so I have 0 clues). Lune is my girl, please don't kill off my nerd.
Also, the Curator is literally my sleep paralysis demon, I cannot look at it 😭😭
girrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrl 😏
Credits and disclaimer: https://tinyurl.com/3jk2c6sr
҉ ⁀➷ 𝑺𝑷𝑹𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑭𝑳𝑶𝑾𝑬𝑹𝑺
╰ 𝑺𝒚𝒍𝒖𝒔 LOVE AND DEEPSPACE: SPRING AND FLOWERS
Why do people who have gotten VIP never say how much they've spent in game? It's always "I haven't kept track" or "I don't remember" or "Maybe this much but idk". Girl, take 5 minutes and use a calculator? Surely you get an email when you buy stuff or your app store purchase history can tell you.
It's giving gatekeeping and last time I checked, hot girls don't gatekeep. The people need to know, otherwise why are you really even bragging about your VIP status?
As a whale, I promise if I reach VIP I will give a dollars and cents breakdown cause the silence from Infold is enough, we don't also need silence from players, fuck.
(this is about global vip since the cn levels are known)
The Barbie movie of it all 😭💞💞🌺💐🌼
And they got everybody makin' out, Sylus humming and calling himself a dragon 😭😭, Zayne being Snow White, Caleb...oh Caleb, the romance is too strong, I can't breathe. And all of MC's different dresses (which are gonna be stupid expensive I already know)
Infold, you will always get my ass 😞
hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng I'm in trouble
king of wands 👑
my full piece for @novaandmali's star crossed - a queer tarot deck! 🌟
Chitterlings/chitlins.
Additionally, okra.
What’s a food from your culture that u HATE #hatersonly
I take it back, I'm still contemplating if I should R2 Lumiere...for the battle perk, not just the outfit.
On the LI scale, Xavier is my lowest priority, but for shooty shoot purposes, I'm so tempted...
LaDS Memories Statistics
I had way too much fun and spent way too much time making all of this so YOU get to see it on your dash idc Character specific stats under the cut ↓ And if you're here for the raw data, and I'm talking excel sheet style, scroll to the end of the post!
Total number of memory cards: 293.
Character balance: 🥇 25.9% - Rafayel (76 cards) - 1 card every 5.9 days since release 🥈 25.6% - Zayne (75 cards) - 1 card every 6 days since release 🥈 25.6% - Xavier (75 cards) - 1 card every 6 days since release 🥉 13.7% - Sylus (40 cards) - 1 card every 6.8 days since release ⚪ 9.2% - Caleb (27 cards) - 1 card every 3 days since release
Stellactrum (color) balance: 🥇 19.1% - Pink (56 cards) 🥈 18.4% - Red (54 cards) 🥉 16.4% - Green (48 cards) ⚪ 16.1% - Purple (47 cards) ⚪ 15.7% - Yellow (46 cards) ⚪ 14.3% - Blue (42 cards)
Rarity balance: 🥇 42.0% - 4 Star (123 cards) 🥈 30.7% - 5 Star (90 cards) 🥉 27.3% - 3 Star (80 cards)
Xavier
Color
Xavier's colors are Yellow and Green, with 17 cards each, and those 2 make up 45.3% of all his cards.
Xavier's Yellow cards make up 37% of all Yellow cards.
While his Green cards make up 35% of all Green cards.
The color he has the least is Blue and Purple, with 8 cards each, which respectively make up for 19% of all Blue cards and 17% of all Purple cards.
Rankings: 🥇 Yellow and Green (17 cards) 🥈 Red (13 cards) 🥉 Pink (12 cards) ⚪ Blue and Purple (8 cards)
Rarity
Xavier has 33 4-star cards, that's 44% of all his cards.
he has the same amount of 3 and 5-star cards and that's 21. They each make for the 2 remaining 28% of all his cards.
His 5-star represent 11.2% of all cards, and 23.3% of all 5-stars.
His 4-star are 7.1% of all cards, and 26.8% of all 4-stars.
And his 3-star make up for 7.1% of all cards, and 26.2% of all 3-stars.
Rarity and color
Out of all his 5-stars, 33.4% are Yellow and 28.5% are Green.
He only has 1 Blue 5-star and 1 Purple 5-star, they each make 4.7% of all his 5-stars.
Out of all his 4-stars, 21% are Green and then chunks of 18.1% are either Red, Pink or Yellow.
Out of all his Pink cards, half are 4-stars.
Zayne
Color
Zayne's color are Red and Blue with 17 cards each (same as Xavier!), making up 45.3% of all his cards.
From all the Blue cards, 40.5% are Zayne's.
While, his Red cards are only 31% of all Red cards.
The color he has the least is Green, with 7 cards, and that makes up 14% of all Green cards.
Stellactrum rankings: 🥇 Red and Blue (17 cards) 🥈 Pink (13 cards) 🥉 Yellow (12 cards) ⚪ Purple (9 cards) ⚪ Green (7 cards)
Rarity
Zayne has 32 4-star cards, making up 42.6% of all his cards.
Next he has 22 5-star cards, representing 29.4% of his cards.
And his 21 3-star cards make for the last 28% of his cards.
His 5-stars are 7.5% of all cards and 24.4% of all 5-stars.
His 4-stars make up 10.9% of all cards and 26% of all 4-stars.
His 3-stars take 7.1% of all cards and 26.2% of all 3-stars.
Rarity and color
Out of all his 5-stars, 31.8% are Red and 27.2% are Blue.
He only has 1 Green 5-star card. That's 4.5% of all his 5-stars.
In his 4-stars and 3-stars, he has the same amount of Pink and Red cards. (6 in 4-stars and 4 in 3-stars)
Rafayel
Color
Rayafel's colors are Pink and Purple, also with 17 cards each (that's pretty consistent!). Those 2 colors make 44.7% of all his cards.
His Pink ones are 30% of all Pink cards.
And his Purple ones are 36.2% of all Purple cards.
The color he has the least is Blue with 7 cards but that still makes 16.6% of all Blue cards.
Stellactrum rankings: 🥇 Pink and Purple (17 cards) 🥈 Red (13 cards) 🥉 Yellow (12 cards) ⚪ Green (9 cards) ⚪ Blue (7 cards)
Rarity
Rafayel has 32 4-star cards, a good 42.2% of his cards.
He also has the same amount of 3 and 5-star cards with 22. They each make for 28.9% of all his cards.
His 5 stars make up for 7.5% of all cards, and 24.4% of all 5-stars.
The 4-stars are 10.9% of it all and 26% of all the 4-stars.
Then his 3 stars: 7.5% of all the cards, and 27.5% of all 3-stars.
Rarity and color
Out of all his 5-stars, 31.8% are Pink and 27.2% are Purple.
He only has 1 Blue 5-star card, that's 4.5% of all his 5 stars.
In each tier (3/4/5 star), he always has the same amount of Red and Yellow cards. (3 for 5-stars, 6 for 4-stars and 4 for 3-stars)
Sylus
Color
Sylus's color is Pink, with 12 cards! That represents exactly 30% of all his cards.
Sylus's Pink cards make up for 21.4% of all Pink cards.
The color he has the least is Red, with 2 cards and that makes 3.7% of all Red cards.
Stellactrum rankings: 🥇 Pink (12 cards) 🥈 Green (10 cards) 🥉 Blue (8 cards) ⚪ Purple (5 cards) ⚪ Yellow (3 cards) ⚪ Red (2 cards)
Rarity
Sylus actually has more 5 star cards than 4-star! He has 16 of those, making up for 40% of all his cards.
In close second, we have his 4-star cards. 15 of them, for a good 37.5% of all his cards.
And he only has 9 3-star cards, filling the last 22.5% of his cards.
His 5 stars are 5.4% of all cards and 17.7% of all 5-stars.
The 4-stars make for 5.1% of all, and 12.1% of all 4-stars.
His 3-stars are 3% of all cards and 11.2% of the 3-stars.
Rarity and color
Out of all his 5-stars, 37.5% are Green ! The most 5-stars he has are not in his main color: only 31.2% are Pink.
He has no Red or Yellow 5-star cards :(
He has as many Blue 4-stars, as Pink 4-stars. (4 each)
Caleb
Color
Caleb's color is Red, with 9 cards ! That is 33% of all his cards.
Out of all the Red cards, 16.6% are Caleb's.
The color he has the least is Yellow, with 1 card. His single yellow card represents 2.1% of all the yellow cards.
Stellactrum rankings: 🥇 Red (9 cards) 🥈 Purple (8 cards) 🥉 Green (5 cards) ⚪ Pink and Blue (2 cards) ⚪ Yellow (1 cards)
Rarity
Caleb has 11 4-star cards, filling a good 40.7% of all his cards.
Then his 9 5-star cards, taking up 33.4%.
Then his 3-star cards. At the count of 7, for the last 25.9%.
His 5-stars represent 3% of all cards, and 10% of all 5-stars.
His 4-stars are 3.7% of all and 8.9% of all 4-stars.
The the 3-stars: 2.3% of everything and 8.7% of all 3-stars.
Rarity and Color
Out of his 5-stars, 55.5% are Purple! Again, the color he has the most in 5-stars is not his main color: Only 33.3% are Red.
He has no Yellow, Blue or Pink 5-star cards :(
He has all the color on 4-stars, but he's missing a Yellow card in the 3-stars.
Misc. Data
Sylus has the best ratio of 5-stars out of all his cards. (40%)
Xavier has the best ratio of 4-stars out of all his cards. (44%)
Rafayel has the best ratio of 3-stars out of all his cards (29%)
Zayne and Rafayel are hoarding the most out of all the 5-stars. (24.4% each)
Caleb has the best ratio of a single color within all his cards. That color is Red and that's 33.4% of his cards.
Zayne has the best ratio of color overall. 40.5% of all Blue cards are his. The second is Xavier with 37% of all Yellow cards.
Sylus and Xavier have the most Green 5-stars. Together they have 75% of all Green 5-stars.
Zayne and Sylus have the most Blue 5-stars. Together they make 81.8% of all Blue 5-stars.
Sylus and Caleb have the least Yellow 5-stars.... That's 0.
Sylus has the worst card to time-since-release ratio, with 1 card every 6.8 days. If he had the same ratio as the original 3 LIs, he'd have 45 cards, which is 5 more than he actually has.
Caleb has the best card to time since release ratio, with 1 card every 3 days. If he had the same ratio as the original 3 LIs, he'd have 13 cards, which is 14 less than he actually has.
The most common type of card is Red or Pink 4-star. (23 each)
The most common 5-star color is Pink. (18)
The most common color in 3-stars are Red and Pink. (15 each)
The rarest type of card is Blue 5-Star. (Only 11)
The rarest color in 4-stars is Blue. (19)
The rarest colors in 3-Stars are Blue and Yellow. (12 each)
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