Thinking About How Self-loathing Is The Core Of Siffrin's Character. So Much Of Siffrin's Issues Revolve

thinking about how self-loathing is the core of siffrin's character. so much of siffrin's issues revolve around thinking that there is something inherently, fundamentally wrong with themself. they're disgusting, terrible, a fraud. people only love siffrin because they don't know the truth. but when they do, they'll surely hate siffrin. they'll surely leave siffrin. they'll realize that siffrin is not, and never was, worthy of their time or attention or love. it's only a matter of time.

but then loop is confronted with an alternate version of themself. and they act like a jerk sometimes, but they also show so much genuine care for siffrin's wellbeing. they try to tell siffrin to let go of the things that hurt him, they try to talk siffrin out of doing things he'll regret, they get mad on siffrin's behalf when he's wronged by others. when siffrin is in need of help, they push aside their personal reservations and hurt and complicated feelings about seeing their friends again to do what is necessary to get siffrin that help he needs.

and siffrin, though they find loop annoying, is fond of them. they care about loop deeply and see loop as someone important to them. when asked by loop to kill them, he laughs and says he doesn't hate himself so much that he would literally kill another version of him. finding out that loop was themself all along doesn't make them think any more negatively of loop. it doesn't change how he feels about them. loop is loop. they are siffrin, and they are siffrin's friend.

there's something about looking at yourself from an outsider's perspective, and not feeling any of that instinctual disgust that so often follows you everywhere you go. seeing yourself as what you are, a person. as someone who is flawed, and being able to recognize that those flaws don't make you irredeemable. realizing that you aren't as terrible as you thought you were. and that despite everything, you are deserving of love. because the proof is right in front of you.

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I do think with news of the ceasefire, everyone should read up on what the ceasefire actually means and what the different phases of the ceasefire are. here's a good source for what we know as of now:

Al Jazeera

What do we know about a Israel-Hamas ceasefire deal in Gaza?

Ceasefire reportedly agreed, including a prisoner exchange and aid surge, after more than 460 days of conflict.

Some of my initial takeaways are:

this ceasefire is temporary (as of right now, six weeks long). negotiations will continue but israel is not offering guarantees about continued non-violence. BDS remains important. be vigilant, keep pressure up

rafah crossing will open one week after the initial phase starts

israel will release 2000 prisoners

more aid will get to northern gaza, look out for ways you can help

if the second phase is initiated, israel will do a complete withdrawal from gaza. which means the initial phase will not include that. again i say: BE VIGILANT

if the third phase is reached, reconstruction will begin "under international supervision"

nothing is over, even if this is a relief. do not tap out, do not tune out.

pls still read the full article

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Bonnie arguing with adult about a pot of soup.

Image text: Back to chef cooker duty!

Bonnie pours soup into a bowl, Mira talks to them.

Image text: Siffrin got really sick after the world ending stuff.

Bonnie running down a corridor with soup in hand.

Image text: They crafted again after we told him not to! Dummy!

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Image text: Lucky him you have the best soup for craft sickness.

Odile sleepily sits in bed cleaning off her glasses.

Image text: You're less stressed now that the country is saved.

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Image text: You'd relax in Dormont more but you can feel everyone's impatience.

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Image text: All ready to get back on the road and enjoy life without the King's curse.

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Image text: You don't actually mind, you enjoy the company more than the location.

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Image text: Oh thank Change you're medicated again.

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Image text: You don't think you can deal with the Savior treatment otherwise.

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Image text: Maybe one day you'll clear up the Chosen one misunderstanding...

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Image text: But you have enough on your hands getting Siffrin to be truthful with you.

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Image text:You can tell the group dynamic is slowly shifting.

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Image text: Or well you're not the main support rock anymore.

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Image text: You'd feel a little more conflicted about it

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Image text: But it's nice being open about your feelings too.

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Image text: I can't live with myself

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Image text: So how could I live with you?

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Image text: You have your rest so let me have mine.

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Image text: Let me grieve for what I lost too.

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Image text: I don't play least faves so here's a fun tip!

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Image text: this form you have, it's not permanent.

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Image text: think of it like a costume u got on!

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Image text: u can take it off in time, can't wait to se u try! see u later!!!

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Hey you! YES YOU! Have you ever had a problem of tracking your achievement progress in ISAT? Do you wish you had a checklist / guide on what the CRAB you should do? Or just you just like collecting random shit?

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if you have never downloaded a notion template, then follow me click keep reading :

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Add to private workspace

Hover over the sidebar, and click on the "<<" symbol to close the sidebar

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if u want to open the sidebar again, then click on the three horizontal line or hover at the very edge on the left.

Here's a quick youtube tutorial on the same thing (for visual learners): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yT4gOS-pfkw

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