Adhd Feels - Blog Posts

Oh, boy, oh, boy, oh, boy. Look at this RSD induced ADD symptoms because it’s hitting home for me.

ADHD is like when you are just chilling in class listening to music and then remember something you were supposed to do and try not to have a panic attack about as you try to do your work to distract your self from said something. Or is it just me

Past Midnight poetry- Just a bit

Sometimes I feel a bit crazy

And a bit hazy

Like I know what’s happening only a bit after it happens

My words aren’t really my own

My brain doesn’t feel like me

And maybe it’s a bit scary

A bit sickening

That I am not living

What I want is peace and I can’t have it yet

I wander a bit here

Ponder a bit about something that maybe doesn’t matter

It’s a bit out of context but maybe I’m not real

My words might be

But I am never really me

Impulse control? Who's that? I don't know her?

*buys more shit she doesn't intend on using*

I’m sorry, I zoned out, if you could repeat literally everything you just said that’d be great

*ADHD brain zoning out again immediately*

my sister: *recalls something from our childhood*

me, a known ADHD: memories aren't real. nu-uh. show me a memory. that's not a memory! what's a memory? who let you in here?

Executive dysfunction be like:

Me: Go to lunch with you on Tuesday? Oh, I can’t I’m busy on Tuesday. On Tuesday I have to send The Email.

Tuesday Morning:

Me: Okay! Gotta send The Email today.

Me: But first, breakfast and a little YouTube to get the day going.

Tuesday Noon:

Me: okay! Day has begun! But it’s lunchtime so I’d better get some lunch.

Tuesday 5 o’clock:

Me: it is now Too Late to send The Email

Logical brain: if you send it now anyway, they’ll see it in the morning.

Me: good point. I should write The Email

Me: *doesn’t write The Email*

Tuesday 11pm:

Me: Tuesday’s almost over! Gotta send That Email!

Me: *opens email, enters address and subject line*

Me: Whew! I started The Email, what an accomplishment! Bed time.

Me: *stressing about sending The Email for the rest of the night, gets no sleep* I’ll send it as soon as I wake up.

Wednesday 11pm:

Me: I have to send The Email.

Me: *opens email*

Me: *Closes email*

Me: *opens email*

Me: *Types “Dear so and so”*

Me: bed time!

Me: *wakes up in a cold sweat at 3 am* I can’t believe I haven’t sent that email!

Me: *Opens laptop, sends email*

Me:

Me: >:( Why was that so hard????