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a/n - this is very bad but i need to feed y'all.
there have been moments when all you want to do was stop breathing. but you have too much to do and too many people who rely on you. so, you settle for hurting yourself instead.
tonight is one of those nights. sitting on your bathroom floor, you pull at your hair and bite your own arms. you taste blood.
tears fall from your eyes as you fall on the floor from exhaustion. you need to clean yourself up. he's supposed to come over in fifteen minutes.
and so, with a shaky sigh, you get up off the cold tile and rinse the blood off your arm. it kind of hurts but also feels kind of nice. it makes you feel kind of alive.
your gaze slowly looks up to the mirror and is met with what most would call an absolute trainwreck. "what a disgusting sight," you think.
your gaze moves back towards the floor as you finish washing the blood off. removing your arms from under the faucet, you look at the bite marks that adorn your arm. it almost makes you feel proud.
fingers trail across the marks as you exit the bathroom to find bandaids. or some gauze. or somthing.
but, much to your dismay, he is standing right outside the bathroom door. your eyes widen with panic as you stare at him. as you look up at him, his eyes meet yours.
"darling... this is getting out of hand," he murmurs. pulling you close, he looks at the damage you've done to yourself. his brows furrow with worry as he sees just how bad it is.
"i.. i'm sorry.." you mutter. it makes your heart hurt every time he sees you like this. it's not the first time he's had to help you after a breakdown.
"don't apologize."
"but you have to deal with me. i'm an adult. you shouldn't have to take care of me."
"i don't take care of you because i have to, darling. i do it because o want to." and with that, he pulls you into a tight embrace. his face buries in the crook of your neck as he goes on: "and i want to because you are my everything. not just my world, but my cosmos."
a lump forms in your throat as he rambles his love for you.
"i love you," you sigh as your voice breaks. a shaky breath leaves your lips as you cry into his shoulder.
"i love you too," he whispers.
the rest of the night is then spent with you curled up in his arms, watching a movie, and him whispering little 'i love you's every chance he gets.
bonus:
"why'd you come over so early anyways?"
"cause i left my razor..."
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