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Endos who claim to want things to be different for them but freak out when they encounter a system with system experiences 💀
We are NOT splitting a guy about it
Pretending to be tougher than you really are won't shield you from the lack of love and affection you experience pretending you don't need it btw.
You know what makes me more enraged about this? He kept acting like i was talking about it as if having alters is some funny shit when i hate these fuckers. I want them dead. I'm being so serious when i say if there was a way to detach them from my brain i'll just instantly kill them. I'm suffering here i'm not here for the shits and giggles. Fuck you
I seriously need endos to fuck the hell off, what i go through daily isn't fun quirky little game you can decide to play, it is a fucking trauma response and i actually have to waste tons of my energy not to cause any more unreversible damage to the other alters. Having other people in your head isn't fucking funny, they're not just "friends you can have inside jokes with". It's tiring. It's debilitating. It's not knowing what will happen when you're not in front. Is having the others getting potentially exposed to danger and being unable to do anything to protect yourself and/or the body. It's others hating you for doing exactly what you were formed to do. The shame, the guilt, the self hate you constantly have to carry around that came after years and years of terrible trauma. It can sometimes be fun but the main point is it's a fucking disorder. I can't stand you guys fucking de-medicalising it so that you can enjoy a fake ass romanticised version of it. I hope my traumas hit you all at once. I hope you split a pre self-consciousness me. I wish all the worst to y'all
Mixing alcohol with meds will never not feel good
Highly recommend creating a discord server exclusively to talk to yourself
What's been happening when I go on walks:
Amechan: what if we get hit by a car and become an amputee
Me: WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK⁉️
I agree with all of this, and want to add my own take in. If there's any reason you should be fakeclaiming people, which there isn't, then it should be because they Don't have fictives from popular media. The more popular the media is, the more people watch it. The more people watch it, the more systems see it, and therefore more systems will split fictives of it. Claiming somebody's faking because they adhere to basic statistics is obtuse and obscene. I absolutely expect to see plenty of dream fictives, hazbin hotel fictives, office, or whatever other popular media. It's literally common sense, please dearest readers, use some critical thinking before you start shouting and pointing at people because they watched popular media while going through struggles. -Em, forever disappointed in the internet
certain fictives make me suspicious. i wont believe you're a system if you have a dream fictive, or anyone from hazbin hotel, or if you have the entire cast of one of those super popular shows. sorry. that's just how we work.
Interesting take and I do see where you're coming from, however this is essentially fake claiming an entire group of people, including those who have diagnosed systems who happen to have introjects from popular media.
There are a lot of reasons people split introjects, including stress and overwhelming experiences, and people with DID can split even after the brain has finished the majority of it's development, especially if they remain in an unsafe environment or they are stressed and already have a system caused by disassociation. Introjects are just another way that the brain choses to process trauma, albeit..a complicated one.
Some "introjects" are simply alters who feel they connect with a character, rather than someone they believe they are.
However, holding that in mind; systems online often chose to share alters, and experiences that they feel others may connect with, who wish to speak or who want to speak/post. We have many alters who don't post for various reasons, and experiences we don't talk about because they're too personal/too triggering etc, but that doesn't mean that they don't exist or didn't happen.
If someone states they have a lot of introjects from a recent popular show/film/fandom/book, and don't show other symptoms then I may become suspicious but flat out stating they can't be a system if they happen to have x character in their head is just... anyway-
Anon, unless you happen to be a psychologist, you don't have the right to entirely say that someone cannot have DID.
I hope I worded this okay. :)
i've been out of a toxic relationship for about two or three years now, and i still find myself craving for that validation that he would give me. i still find myself craving *his* attention because i had spent almost a year in that environment and have had nothing to fill the void. i can't imagine the amount of damage he would've caused if i had stayed.
there's an epidemic of attention seekers and it's been villanized to the point someone can very blatantly cry for help and it'll be pushed to the side that "they're just an annoying attention seeker, don't fuel their delusion"
but this behavior typically is from traumatized people who have been victims!!! let me break down how attention seeking behavior ties back to being abused for you to understand.
first your abuser makes you nothing, your self worth is zero and you are completely worthless. then bit by bit, your self worth is drip fed back to you ONLY this time it comes with a clause. your self worth now belongs to that abuser, so the moment you leave and escape? you become nothing all over again. it's like an addiction really, feeling worth something after feeling worthless for so long. and the cycle just repeats over and over, it's easy for abusers to take those who already view themselves as nothing under their wing - and for the victim? the pattern continues again and again until it is etched into their brain that the only way to make them feel worth something is to be abused.
so what happens when someone gets out of abuse and doesn't find another abuser? well that's where the attention seeking behavior comes in. they are free but they feel lost, and attention is the only thing that comes close to the feeling they had back when they were being abused.
so can we stop viewing attention seeking behavior as an inherently negative trait and start realizing it may be signs of something more going on beyond the surface? people don't do things for no reason and especially regarding syscourse issues, some people REALLY need to have more compassion.