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Didn’t reach the reblog nor like goal but im obsessed so I made the refs anyway 😋😋😋

Now heres my Yap-Fest from my notes

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Basically a second gem war breaks out while Stevens a toddler, as Steven grows, (without Greg, L + Ratio bozo) more and more homeworld gems end up joining the Crystal Gems with Stevens diplomacy skills, however at the same time Garnet, Amethyst, and Pearl are all captured by Homeworld (presumed dead but they arent dw-) leaving Steven, 14 years old at the time, to command them. A year later Steven finds Bismuth in Lions mane and questions her, homeworld or rebel? Why were you important to Rose? What do you do? etc.

And extra later, (roughly a year after Bismuth is re-active) Jasper is abandoned by Yellow Diamond, after she finds out about Jasper resorting to recruiting, what the Diamonds think, are Earthlings (The Corrupted Gems), and ends up reluctantly joining the Crystal Gems as a catalyst for revenge. (She slowly comes around to them and further advances Stevens fighting style)

Speaking of his fighting style!

Stevens powers are more on the offense gem-ish side than the shows defensive humane side.

So this Steven is lavaproof and poofable! (with enough force/damage that is)

As you may have noticed in the references, Steven’s shield has more thorns around the radius, so when he throws it, it ends up acting as like, a sawblade ig.

He also has a helmet like Jaspers, I thought it’d work out since this Steven is more headstrong and “dont think, dont care,” than classic Steven. Which leads to this Steven being taught to use fighting to solve most homeworld problems, (by both Bismuth and Jasper) however a bit of our classic Steven tends to slip out in waves of empathy and doesn’t *always* resort to such methods.

This isnt really a fighting style but he figured out how to store things in his gem like the others do, (mostly Pearl) which is where he keeps his mothers sword, as in this version he never found her scabbard to keep it in / he never brought Lion to the straw-battle field.

A handful of humans are in the care of the temples base to avoid the robonoids that now wonder Earth, now being programmed to search and destroy unregistered gems AND organics, while others are either dead or have successfully made it to the shelters before the war went all out.

These humans include Barb, Lars, Sourcream, and Yellowtail.

Later to be found: Sadie and Onion, who were taking refuge in the Big Donut before Steven found them.

Fun fact! Some humans fall in the void as well, most end up injured but luckily no one died.

A lot of humans took a liking to the gang thanks to the fact that the Starscreams helped them :D The overall favorite seems to be Jasper since he seemed to be the least intimidating out of the three XD

Though they do like to bother Silver a lot just cause he reminds them of an tired but fun uncle. Maroon’s the designated napping spot for the humans since he’s really warm.

General Team Misfit lore:

-First King of Fighters Tournament they entered was in one in 2001, at the end of the NESTS saga. Then they would enter KoF 2003, Kof 11, Kof 13, and KoF 15 tournaments and three other members would join (more on them in the future.)

-Their leader is Veronica Lavon, as she was the one thought they should enter in the 2001 KoF tournament.

-They all hang out/live in an abandoned apartment complex close to Southtown as it's near where Cider DeLuna lives (who is the only one with a huge amount of money, the rest of them are broke 😂)

Veronica Lavon Lore bit:

-One of NESTS human experiments, that was given lava powers but managed to escape from a base in Russia. Though she did sustain bullet wounds from her escape but was healed by her soon-to-be mentor, Madame Ilyukhina.

-Madame Ilyukhina is the one who taught Veronica ballet to help her gain dexterity and nimbleness. Along with kickboxing so Veronica could know self-defense.

-Veronica was scared that Madame Ilyukhina would throw her to the streets if she discovered about her powers. Thinking that winning the 2001 KoF tournament would make Ilyukhina accept her better, she decided to run away and find two people to make a them. However Madame Ilyukhina would come during the opening ceremony to claim Team Misfit's striker position.

Asura Lore Bit:

-Her name isn't actually Asura, it's an alias she gave herself.

-When Asura was a child she would have dreams of an otherworldly entity with six arms causing her parents to believe she was possessed by a demon. Abandoning her at a young age at an area filled with yakuza, after she awakened her powers.

-Mainly being raised by yakuza, she began to wear a demon mask due to her "being possessed by a demon". However when she managed to see a match Team Psycho Soldiers were in, she concluded that her powers were psychic like theirs *Cough* They're not. *Cough* so when the 2001 tournament was coming up she decided to enter with Veronica to get meet Team Psycho Soldiers and see if they can answer her questions.

Cinder DeLuna Lore bit:

-Originally born in Mexico, he was kidnapped at 3 by a cartel with connections to Geese Howard and was taken to Southtown.

-While he was kidnapped by the cartel, they forced him to be an assassin for them teaching him use two pistols. However this only backfired on them as Cinder used his assassin skills to kill the whole cartel and escape (along with stealing all their money). Eventually joining Veronica and Asura in the 2001 KoF tournament.

-When Team Misfit was registering, they nearly got banned because Cinder brought his two pistols with the event organizers saying that guns aren't allowed only for Cinder to refute "Oh, so people that can summon fire and other pinche powers are allowed, but no firearms? Sabes lo ridículo que es?" His words are as quick as his shoot, also he uses rubber bullets in KoF tournaments.

Onya Lore Doc!

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ioazKuDoMQBQenQUOXapBJTsN3XYHjppT7h-0Abde8Q/edit?usp=drivesdk

Lore time!!!! :3

Mhm k, so, when Vierla is dating Pete, he obviously wants to show off what a huge catch he has, and showing her to the club somehow made them cause a huge fight, specifically Bill because he doesn’t allow girls to join. When they decided to stop finally it was because Bill didn’t want Pete to show up to any of the meetings anymore if he was still going out with her. Hearing this, she feels incredibly bad for Pete and wants to him to enjoy the things he love. She goes to Bill the next day and asks him to let Pete be unsuspended from the club. He sees this is as an opportunity to rip her off, so he decides that he will let Pete join in their meetings if she agreed to whatever Bill said. She agrees and hooked his pinkie with his, a segment of their promise.

She does what he wanted as to keep Pete in the club. Vierla finds herself a bit miserable with all the weird tasks she had to do and buy some collectibles for him, despite that she finds him funny with his reactions and he started to grow on her more and more. They usually hangout in secret, and talked about whatever and their problems, it seemed like she finally had a friend that understood her (other than Pete) comforting as it seems. Bill couldn’t help that each time they hold eye contact it felt like they were in their own little world together.

There was one night, where Pete got sick, and she didn’t want to go to the pep rally alone, so she asked Bill. Of course he said no at first, but with enough begging he decided to go, and it was cold to where you could see your breath.

After the pep rally, they walked together to her place and the moon was full tonight, where it was just the two of them. She pointed out the moon and talked about how beautiful it was tonight, and he would slightly disagree because how can it be beautiful? It wasn’t even—he started to shut up when the moonlight brightly lit her face, and heat crept up on his face. That’s when he realized. Even thought the moonlight wasn’t beautiful to him, the person in front of him was…Pete felt this way with Vierla, did she always have this affect on people?..He wouldn’t know and he didn’t care. All he wanted was to keep this moment just a bit longer and never let this night to end for them. Unfortunately for him, they made it to her house and she gave him a hug before going inside.

"Thanks for being a great friend..I had an amazing time."

"Sure..whatever.."

He developed a crush on Vierla. Pete’s Girlfriend. Shit.

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Star·ıĝĥþ, RedMoon and Ɓ·ụəMœœŋ by me

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First things first, I'm gonna be rewriting my fic due to new ideas flowing in.

Secondly, let me info dump some things about sparklings in my AU.

The Sparkling's name in this pic is Firefly. She's an Oplita kid.

A Sparkling's gender is in the optic color. Female Cybertronians will have cooler or lighter tones of the color they have. While males will have a more warm hue of said color. As an example of this, Starscream, who was originally forged as female, has a more pink color to the red of his optics. A Cybertronian born as a male with red optics will have more of a fiery orange tint to it, Grimlock and various Decepticons being prime examples. On the rare occasion that a Sparkling is born without an assigned gender, they will have the base color of optics and will be referred to as neutral pronouns. Nightshade is a great example of this. Gender can be changed in the future when and if they decide to.

On the topic of optic colors, the color of the child's optics will be based on the parents. If a Cybertronian with red optics is to forge a Sparkling with a Cybertronian with yellow optics, the chances of that child being born with orange optics is highly likely, with the rare cases of heterochromia occurring with both the eye colors of the parents. 'Pure color' optics, a rather derogatory term, is where a Sparkling has unmixed optics and has had parents with the same optic color, those two being typically red and yellow. Optic colors can also be slightly changed with a film over the optic, much like a colored contact lense, though, it is usually easy to tell.

Sparklings are born with only one base color, a white or light gray (debatable by cyber-parents) this color is the base color of the metal they are made of. A metal that grows with them and allows their bodies to change voluntarily into whatever mode they wish with some limitations based on heritage and age. Typically, they develop the ability to transform once they are six cycles (6 million human years) old.

Sparklings can change their paint jobs when they are old enough to transform. They also can change their colorings whenever they please as adults. The colorings that are typically chosen matter based on the colors of their parent(s)/guardian(s).

Much like human children, they develop to speak coherently at a toddler age. During their infant and newborn stages, they typically babble in unintelligible Cybertronian, which consists of cybernetic sounds and rumbles. Purring is not something only Sparklings possess. Adult Cybertronians also have the ability to purr and do it quite often to convey contentment or happiness to a situation or individual that makes them feel positive emotions. Cooing is something mostly maternal or paternal figures do in front of their offspring or anything they deem fit to be under their care. Typically, those who transform into avian vehicles coo to their young.

Female Cybertronians are typically more aggressive than males. Originally, in Cybertronian history, females were bigger than the males, dominating the planet until they were nearly all wiped out. Over time, and the lack of resources from hiding, they became smaller, some even becoming male to avoid scrutiny. Because of the shortage of females, homosexual relationships are quite common within the males of Cybertron. Some of the females who have managed to escape Cybertron have populated other planets where it is nearly all female.

Avian based infant Sparklings will likely learn how to run or move quickly with the thrusters built into their bodies, typically their backs or feet. While land based Sparklings will learn on their wheels or just like human children.

Fun fact about lore?

During the start of the intergalactic era, fossil fuels became dangerously scarce and the spaceships that were being built at the time were some crazy gas guzzlers, so there was a drastic crash in intergalactic travel for a few years as new technology was developed

Now, biofuel and liquid hydrogen (hydrogen fuel cells is an experimental fuel being currently worked on) are the most commonly used fuels. Fossil fuels still exist, but those that use them are considered old timey and classic, which a few love but a lot hate.

Also, liquid hydrogen systems require a nuclear core to power. The liquid hydrogen is injected into the core to create a chemical reaction which will boost the ship forward. Ships using these systems are either bi-system ships (paired with electricity, typically) or large scale cargo ships

KEEPER OF STARS LORE?

KEEPER OF STARS LORE

Star is I think the first minor Keeper we have actually talked about.

They were created by Space so that they could focus on building and expanding the universe and have someone keep the solar systems in check. Star can only directly control stars, but can indirectly effect planets. Their job isn’t to create but to maintain.

Not much stuff has happened with them so far, but their main mentions are when they’re checking in on Space.

There’s probably going to be more lore with them as time goes on but as of now that’s all for them

Do we have any Keepers that are precious beans?

Yes

Precious beans include Space, Star, and Moon

I would consider Time as well but they’re more of the tired parent of the Space Trio

Life/Wilderness could also probably be a precious bean but only like 50% of the time when they are obsessing over tiny creatures

Energy and Matter are chaotic beans. They’re just some little guys that don’t know what sitting still means

Can we get a Lore Dump about Weather?

Lore Dump about Weather

Weather is a founding Keeper, but is nicknamed the minor of the founding Keepers. They kinda didn’t have anything to do for a while and just messed with Space by blowing winds through their nebulas and using hydrogen from stars to make some makeshift storms that would blow through the universe

Weather is typically rather calm and collected, occasionally loosing their cool and going off on the other keepers. They’ve learned to not make Weather angry, since their revenge works slowly over time. There are rumors that Weather broke the sacred timeline in spite of how often Time “pushed them around“ as they say.

Weather’s personal realm is a small forested area that typically is being rained on. Weather has a small cabin they stay in.

Weather isn’t the most hated Keeper, per se, but they’re definitely on the list of “These Keepers suck to deal with”. Space is a pushover however, and Weather often messes with their work.

Can we get some lore about Time Keeper

Lore about Time Keeper

Time looks over the Sacred Timeline, obviously. Everything that happens has to be approved by them. Big hurricane sweeping through a coastal town in the Victorian era? Sure, won’t be too disastrous and we need a bit of spice around here anyway. Microevolution of a species? Yeah we can work that in.

Their realm is a vast desert surrounded by an ocean of white water. An array of hourglasses and clocks litter the landscape, acting as the foundation of the timeline.

Since the beginning, Time’s power has been unstable and finicky. They’re constantly patching holes and stabilizing the timeline, hourglasses, and clocks because they will randomly break.

OFnR (Placeholder name for my story surrounding Swift) starts with the Sacred Timeline becoming unstable and starting to unravel. I’m a panic, Time had to freeze a section of the timeline, which caused a chain reaction and for the hourglasses (holding up the older half of the timeline) to start to crack.

Time immediately called Space and asked them to keep an eye on the timeline while they went into the timeline to get a patron and try to fix it from the inside.

So yeah that’s what Time is up to

You could say they’re

Having a time

*ba dun ching*

They need a redesign but here’s their TH

Can we get an intervention for Time Keeper and Space Keeper to let them know about their gayness

They wouldn’t believe you if you told them

Space: Gay? Like happy?

Time: Gay as in love. And no we are not gay

Space: I do love you though :<

Time: Like- romantically

Space: ohhhhhhh

Space: yeah we’re just best friends :)

*grabs you*

I would love to hear some stuff about Chelsea, she’s literally my favorite boi ever and I need to know more about her gimme gimme /nf

AH CHELSEA YES I WOULD LOVE TO RANT ABOUT HER

(Horror and gore warning)

Okay so Chelsea is a coyote living in Yowkai. She was born to a Very Large Family and she is the middle child of middle children she is extremely overlooked, despite the fact she’s literally in the Yowkai Academy. She has a bit of an issue with her family, but hey at least she has a good group of friends.

She’s the seventh wheel.

Not only this, but she’s also cursed. Yaaaaaaay

Thing about curses:

In this universe, a large percentage of the overall population over the entire universe has some form of magic. Magic is genetic, and similar powers are passed down over generations. There is a variation of magic known as a curse, where aspects of the magic is turned from protection to destruction.

In Chelsea’s case, she has a curse known as Predator Syndrome.

Predator Syndrome is a curse that strengthens the host, but drives them to near insanity. It starts with random episodes where primal instincts start to overtake the host. If and when the host kills someone is when the curse is set into motion. Nothing immediate happens besides the lack of episodes. After a while (on average around 6-8 months), the host sees a figure that will watch and follow them. They star out too far away to make out any details, but with each day they grow closer until you realize that it’s an entire freaking skeleton.

They get closer until they are right behind the host. During this time while they’re drawing near, the host starts experiencing severe anxiety and starts having the primal episodes again.

In Chelsea’s case, she killed again, and that reset the skeleton. A few months later, it’s back with a friend.

Essentially what happens is there’s a long distance between the host and the skeleton. The skeleton moves closer to the host over time until the host can see the skeleton. When this happens, it triggers anxiety and predator responses. Each time the host kills, the clock is reset back to the beginning, except this time there’s another skeleton and they move slightly faster.

When the skeletons reach the host, the host dies.

With Chelsea, her heart is literally ripped out of place in her chest. In her eyes, the skeleton of her first victim bit a hole straight through her and crushed her heart in it’s jaws.

I have an animation I’m working on that focuses on her lore, but here’s her TH page that I really need to update at some point qwq

Can we get a lore rant about the space mans

*deep inhale*

Space Keeper is one of the founding keepers. Keepers are basically my OC world’s equivalent of the Greek gods.

The way the keepers work is each of them have control over one specific thing. In the beginning when there wasn’t really anything, there were the founding keepers that started to create stuff. As time went on, more things were being created that the keepers couldn’t keep track of, so they created (not like that-) more keepers to help them. These are the minor keepers.

Minor keepers are slightly less powerful keepers that serve mainly to adjust the work load and stabilize creation. Only founding keepers can make other keepers.

Anyway so back to Space.

Space, while having a broad range of stuff to keep in check, only has two minor keepers to assist them, those being Keeper of the Stars and Keeper of Moons. Space, like the other keepers, has their own personal realm, which is basically a really small galaxy (small as in the size of New York City).

Now to address Space’s wings.

So on Space’s ref sheet, they aren’t shown to have wings. That’s because they no longer do. Okay, we’ll technically they do but they don’t show them because they’re charred. Basically, they had these large, elegant white wings that were burned and destroyed in a fight among the founding keepers. What had happened was a disagreement between the founding keepers over how to go about with creating a universe, which spiraled into a fight, which created War.

War is not necessarily a keeper. They’re considered one by the majority of the keepers, but the founders don’t necessarily consider them one. War was not created intentionally nor by a specific keeper, and they don’t oversee a certain area of creation. Instead, they stir up trouble among the keepers and the creatures along the Timeline.

Space, while mainly uninvolved in drama unless it specifically involves them (this being one of the few times it did), was caught in the crossfire between conflicting sides, and when War made their dramatic appearance by literally blowing up the meeting hall, Space had attempted to shield Time and Energy (two other founding keepers) and ended up having their wings catch fire. When the hall collapsed, Space fell with it, all the way down to one of the planets. To the eyes of creatures in the universe, they saw a wonderful meteor shower. To the eyes of the keepers, they had just lost one of the most important keepers.

Space didn’t end up dying, but they did hide out on this planet for quite a while until Star and Moon found them and convinced them to return.

Since then, Space had been very quiet and oftentimes is found in the outer reaches of the universe or in their realm.

Anyway, feel free to check out their TH

Seth Yaneh

From the modern AU (or a new story, I’m thinking about the name).

He is Kenyan’s and Sylris’s child, but not in the traditional way. They kinda rescued (kidnapped?……) him from a death scene, but Sylris went a bit too far on his cure. Let’s say he literally reset the kid and “programmed” him into believing they’re his parents.

They slay at parenting, don’t they? ☺️ /jk

Below, the moment Sylris first met him (cw: blood, abuse, death?)

Seth doesn’t remember about it, and he also doesn’t know how was his life before. Sylris has an idea of how it was after searching on it, but chose to not mention it to anyone. It’s like he deleted that child and created a new one: their precious son, Seth.

I want to give some of these fanfic ideas some spotlight- Cuz I’m not like DOING anything with them, but I need them out of my brain NOW! I just can’t decide what to talk about- So, whichever one gets the most votes, I’ll do a fun little explanation on like- The lore and stuff. And if you’re curious and want a BIT more information about some of these titles, I could probably give a short explanation. But yeah.

Have some random images for some of them under the cut (Some unfinished)

IVE COMPILED MOST OF THE RELATIVITY FALLS POSTS IVE MADE- From least recent to most recent just for funsies

Short comic pt 1

Short comic p2

Corny poem/Art

Short comic tidbit

Explanation + Doodle dump

So BASICALLY my version of the Relativity Falls AU goes as follows- To start with, I DO NOT SWAP THE PERSONALITIES OF THE CHARACTERS. Any changes in personality is purely based off of how they as characters would react to their situations. It really ticks me off when people go about this AU by just copy pasting the personality of the character they swap with, instead of actually having them act how they would as themselves- If that makes sense. Another thing to note is that NOT ALL CHARACTERS ARE AGE SWAPPED. Mostly for conflict purposes and to ensue SOME things remain along the path of canon. For instance, Stan and Fords parents in canon are now Dipper and Mables parents in this AU. Vice versa. Of course, most characters ARE age swapped to avoid weirdness if you catch my drift- But that’s a big one. “Roles” of characters have also shifted, and not set ins stone. For example, while in this AU CANDY is the fiddleford character who goes crazy, she is also sometimes the Abuelita character, or the Soos character, and so on. Or with Stan and Ford, they are not bound by how Dipper and Mable acted in canon. Sometimes in scenarios concerning episodes/chapters, Ford is more Mableish and Stan is more Dipperish. ALSO- Mable and Dippers relationship here is a lot less toxic than Stan and Fords in canon. Or at least, it’s a different sort of toxic. For instance, Dipper goes with Mable when she gets kicked out of the house- Under different circumstances of course- And Dipper is much less inclined to hold a grudge with her. In fact, in this AU Mable is constantly dependent on Dipper who sacrifices a lot for her, causing major guilt on Mable’s half. She wants Dipper to put himself first sometimes, and Dipper is confused why Mable won’t just accept help. They are too codependent on EACHOTHER- It’s sort of funny how their main issue is they love EACHOTHER too much or whatever. Which brings us to the main big bad- Not BILL in this AU, as he ends up getting killed whilst trying to show off the stars- And instead, the demon issue is his parents, Scalene and Euclid. Or at least in this AU, a creepy Frankenstein-esc FUSION known as CONNIE. And instead of whatever toxic relationship Ford and Bill had in canon, Connie is more of a toxic adoptive/mentor who takes advantage of the twins parental issues. It’s pretty silly, especially since being possessed by Connie has a lot more detrimental properties on the body than in canon with bill. (A human body can only hold so many souls… Let alone 2 at the same time. Get possessed by Connie for too long, and the human body just may… Split apart.) lots of silly swaps, and different dynamics I like a lot. For instance, Ford has issues with Preston Northwest when he’s forced to be the rich kids friend who only befriends “The best and most unique- A cut above the rest” or something like that. Stanley also has sibling issues with Ford, ESPECIALLY during weirdmaggeddon when Ford gets his bubble and let’s just say- Stan takes his weird smart double A LOT MORE PERSONALLY. Even in this AU, these goobers get hurt a lot. Also, I can’t get the imagery of when Dipper returns from the portal out of my mind- With them running to hug eachother instead of instant violence. I love all of them. Also, Pacifica runs the diner and may I say… Mabifica? Except they’re old. Loads more fun stuff, but that’s the basic points I wanted to highlight. Personalities haven’t changed, and if they do it’s purely based off how their environments have changed. Ford is a bit less self conscious about his fingers- Because as far as the time period goes- People are bit more welcoming of odd features. In fact, at home he’s pretty popular. Stanley is far more artistically inclined as he was never put off and is overall very creative. Mable used to be a hippy- And let’s just say at some point Dipper had to save her from a crazy hippy cult which leads to them reuniting and living together at the cottage. It’s a curiosity cottage in this universe. Bud gleefuls wife in canon has a creepy crush on Stan- AND MORE!!!!

I need to rant about them, but don’t know which ones to start with cuz I put an unreasonable amount of thought into my au variations and yeah

Goblok in MHIY (My happiness is you) au

This is his starting character ref for now ...I will make his full body soon- anyways....meet him!

His Lore!:

His part of a village filled with his kind, he was captured during his wedding day. Goblok witnesses his bride's death right in front of him as he wasn't even able to touch her or even embrace her for the last time. It traumatized him (despite that his bride was also his childhood crush-and the bride also liked him). His village is located in dark wood.

The trauma got to him real bad, he was then rescued by the lamb (Early cult leader). His issues started to show after being around the cult, he began to have nightmares from the wedding day, harming new fellow cultists in fear that they will kill him, grieves for the loss of his late bride, surprisingly the Lamb is the only one who can calm him down.

And she's the only one that can lower his walls down for. Lamb marries Gob, trying her best to help him out of his misery by fulfilling the role of his late bride, his case was the worst. The Lamb reminds him of his late bride, they have perfect similarities except that she's a Lamb. He sees his bride in the lamb, that's why he calms down whenever he sees her

Their marriage is only transactional, the Lamb is aware of this and will keep her followers faith satisfied. She sees him as someone that she can tell all her problems to and is very attached to him since his the first follower (As Goblok is also attached to her).

Years passed, he slowly healed from the trauma but still has a huge tendency to relapse if the Lamb suddenly disappears unbeknownst to him.

Additional info about him:

-has known the Lamb before the others

-had 3 Resurrections (one from dying old, second from expedition, 3rd from trying to break of a fight between cultists) 

-He married the Lamb for mental health purposes, and also to feel safe and to secure himself from the other followers. To avoid hurting others whenever there's an episode of his panic attacks or trauma attacks. 

-Hates not being reassured 

-is the emotional support of the Lamb and the Lamb is their emotional support as well

-sees the Lamb as for who she is (on what he thinks who the lamb is for him)

-Devoted follower of the Lamb

-favorite color sky Blue

-second male lead syndrome

-Likes to paint the lamb

-he thinks that he knows who the Lamb fully (he doesn't)

-their marriage is nothing but only transactional, Gob promises to not fall for the Lamb.

Yes, a follow-up to the last post! The happily married, fun couple before the tragedy! (It's not like I'm still drowning in HW or anything.)

Meet Yichen Hao, Huan, and Long's father. Don't expect his horns to look the same in every drawing I'm going to make of him; I'm never consistent.

(I felt bad that I kept calling them Huan's parents when they are also Long's parents too; I just keep forgetting about him. o v o)

My universal HC for all dragons is that in their human form, they are tall, and that half dragon will either get dragon tall or human short, no in between.

Huan and Mei got human short while Long got dragon tall. I suck as drawing accurate height but he holding her up in the drawing.

Their ship name is: Everlasting

(Ironic and cruel, I'm very evil.)

Fun Fact:

During the 'Tragedy' Hao's kill count skyrocketed, putting all the demons to shame and making Sung Wukong kill count in the JTTW look like child's play.

𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐕 𝐎𝐂!!!!

✧─── ･ ｡ﾟ★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧

𝐓𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐲𝐝:

ᴅᴇsᴄʀɪᴘᴛɪᴏɴ: ʜᴇ ɪs ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴏʟᴇsᴛ ɢᴜʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʜɪʟʟᴇsᴛ ʜᴇ sᴍᴏᴋᴇs ᴡᴇᴇᴅ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴅᴀʏ 24/7 (ɴᴏᴛ ᴀᴄᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ʙᴜᴛ ʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇs ɪᴛ) ʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇs ʜɪs ᴡɪғᴇ ʙʀɪᴛɴᴇʏ ʜᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴇᴏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʜᴇ'ᴅ ᴅᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴇʀ ʜᴇ's ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴅᴇᴘᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ ᴏɴ ʜᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏ, ʜᴇ ᴘʟᴀʏs ɢᴀᴍᴇs sᴜᴄʜ ᴀs

ɢᴀᴍᴇs:

ᴍᴇᴛᴀʟ ɢᴇᴀʀ sᴏʟɪᴅ (sɴᴀᴋᴇ ᴇᴀᴛᴇʀ ɪs ʜɪs ғᴀᴠ) // ᴅᴇᴠɪʟ ᴍᴀʏ ᴄʀʏ (ᴅᴍᴄ5 ɪs ʜɪs ғᴀᴠ) // ᴍɪɴᴇᴄʀᴀғᴛ // ᴏᴠᴇʀᴡᴀᴛᴄʜ(ᴊᴜɴᴋʀᴀᴛ ᴍᴀɪɴ) // ᴛғ2(sɴɪᴘᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ sᴄᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴀɪɴ) // ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ᴅᴇᴀᴅ ᴛᴇʟʟᴛᴀʟᴇ ɢᴀᴍᴇs // ʙᴏʀᴅᴇʀʟᴀɴᴅs // ʙɪᴏsʜᴏᴄᴋ // ғᴀʟʟᴏᴜᴛ 3 ᴀɴᴅ 4 // sᴏɴɪᴄ ᴀᴅᴠᴇɴᴛᴜʀᴇ 1 ᴀɴᴅ 2 // ᴀɴᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴄᴏᴏʟ ɢᴀᴍᴇs

ᴍᴜsɪᴄ:

ʟɪᴍᴘ ʙɪᴢᴋɪᴛ // ᴋᴏʀɴ // ᴘɪɴᴋ ғʟᴏʏᴅ // ᴍsɪ // ʀᴀᴅɪᴏʜᴇᴀᴅ // ᴘᴀᴜʟ ᴍᴄᴄᴀʀᴛɴᴇʏ // ᴊᴏʜɴ ʟᴇɴɴᴏɴ // ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇᴀᴛʟᴇs // ɢᴏʀɪʟʟᴀᴢ // ᴇɴᴛᴇʀ sʜɪᴋᴀʀɪ // ᴛʏᴘᴇ ᴏ ɴᴇɢᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ // ʙᴏɴɢᴢɪʟʟᴀ // ᴛʜᴇ sᴍɪᴛʜs // ᴀᴠᴇɴɢᴇᴅ sᴇᴠᴇɴғᴏʟᴅ // sʏsᴛᴇᴍ ᴏғ ᴀ ᴅᴏᴡɴ // ɢʜᴏsᴛ // sʟɪᴘᴋɴᴏᴛ // ᴍᴇᴛᴀʟʟɪᴄᴀ // ʙʟᴀᴄᴋ sᴀʙʙᴀᴛʜ // ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʀᴏᴄᴋ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴇᴛᴀʟ ʙᴀɴᴅs

ғᴏᴏᴅs ᴀɴᴅ ᴅʀɪɴᴋ:

ᴘɪᴢᴢᴀ // ᴘᴀsᴛᴀ // ғᴀsᴛ ғᴏᴏᴅ // ᴅᴏʀɪᴛᴏs // ᴍᴏᴜɴᴛᴀɪɴ ᴅᴇᴡ // ᴍᴏɴsᴛᴇʀ: ᴏʀɪɢɪɴᴀʟ //ᴀʟᴄᴏʜᴏʟɪᴄ ʙᴇᴠᴇʀᴀɢᴇs!!! // sᴏ ʙᴀsɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ ʜᴇ ʜᴀs ᴀ ʙᴀᴅ ᴅɪᴇᴛ

ʟᴏʀᴇ:

ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ ᴡᴀs ʙᴏʀɴ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴜᴋ, ʟɪᴠᴇʀᴘᴏᴏʟ ʜᴇ ᴡᴀs ʀᴀɪsᴇᴅ ʙʏ ʜɪs ᴄᴏᴏʟ ᴅᴀᴅ ᴍɪᴋᴇʏ ᴀɴᴅ ʜɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴍᴀʀɪᴀ ʜɪs ʟɪғᴇ ᴡᴀs ɴᴏʀᴍᴀʟ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ ᴡᴀs 14. ᴍɪᴋᴇʏ ᴄᴀᴜɢʜᴛ ᴍᴀʀɪᴀ ʜᴀᴠɪɴɢ ᴀɴ ᴀғғᴀɪʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅɪᴠᴏʀᴄᴇᴅ ʜᴇʀ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ ᴡᴀs ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴅᴇᴘᴇɴᴅᴇɴᴛ ᴏɴ ʜɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴀs ɪɴ ʜᴇɪ ᴇʏᴇs sʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʀᴜʟʏ sʜᴇ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴜsᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴛʜɪɴɢs sʜᴇ ᴡᴀs ᴛᴏᴏ ʟᴀᴢʏ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ᴍɪᴋᴇʏ ɢᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪᴠᴏʀᴄᴇ ʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴍᴀʀɪᴀ sᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ɪᴛ ᴅᴏᴠᴇ ʜɪᴍ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇssɪᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ sᴇᴠᴇʀᴇ ᴀʟᴄᴏʜᴏʟ ᴘʀᴏʙʟᴇᴍ ʜᴇ'ᴅ ᴠɪsɪᴛ ʜɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴏɴ ᴡᴇᴇᴋᴇɴᴅs sʜᴇ'ᴅ ғᴏʀᴄᴇ ʜɪᴍ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴏʀᴋ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏᴜsᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴊᴏʙs sʜᴇ ᴜsᴜᴀʟʟʏ ʜᴀᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ sʜᴇ'ᴅ ʙʀɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅs ᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴡʜᴏ ᴡᴇʀᴇ sɴᴏᴛᴛʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴇᴀɴ ᴊᴜsᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʜᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇʏ'ᴅ ʙᴜʟʟʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛᴇᴀsᴇ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ ᴀs ʜɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ғᴏʀᴄᴇ ʜɪᴍ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴀɴᴄᴇ ᴏʀ ᴅᴏ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴇɴᴛᴇʀᴛᴀɪɴ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ ᴡᴀs 15 ʜɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ʟᴇғᴛ ᴀʙʀᴜᴘᴛʟʏ ᴀʙᴀɴᴅᴏɴᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇᴍ. ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ ᴡᴀs 16 ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ʜɪs sᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅs ʜᴇ ᴅɪsᴄᴏᴠᴇʀᴇᴅ ᴡᴇᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ʜᴇʟᴘᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍ ᴄᴏᴘᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ɪssᴜᴇs ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʀᴀᴜᴍᴀ ᴀғᴛᴇʀ ʜɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ʟᴇғᴛ ʜɪᴍ, ʜᴇ ᴋᴇᴘᴛ ɪᴛ ᴀ sᴇᴄʀᴇᴛ ғʀᴏᴍ ʜɪs ᴅᴀᴅ ʜɪs ᴅᴀᴅ ᴡᴀs ᴛᴏᴏ ᴅʀᴜɴᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʙᴜᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ʙʏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ʜᴇ ᴡᴀs 17 ᴍɪᴋᴇʏ ᴡᴀs ɴᴏᴡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ʜɪs ᴀʟᴄᴏʜᴏʟɪsᴍ ᴀғᴛᴇʀ ʜɪs ɴᴇᴡ ʜᴜsʙᴀɴᴅ ᴋᴀʀʟ ʜᴇʟᴘᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍ ʜᴇᴀʟ, ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ᴍɪᴋᴇʏ ғᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ sᴍᴏᴋɪɴɢ ᴡᴇᴇᴅ ʜᴇ ᴀᴅᴠɪsᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴏᴘ ʙᴜᴛ ʜᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴀɴʏ ғᴜʀᴛʜᴇʀ ᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴs, ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ ᴡᴀs 18 ʜᴇ sᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴀ ʙᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇʏ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴍᴇ ǫᴜɪᴛᴇ ᴘᴏᴘᴜʟᴀʀ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʜᴇ ᴡᴀs 25 ʜᴇ ᴍᴇᴛ ʜɪs ғᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴡɪғᴇ ʙʀɪᴛɴᴇʏ ᴡʜᴏ ᴡᴀs 24 ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ sʜᴇ ᴡᴀs ᴀ ᴍᴏᴅᴇʟ ǫᴜɪᴛᴇ ᴀ ғᴀᴍᴏᴜs ᴏɴᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ ʜɪᴛ ɪᴛ ᴏғғ ɪɴsᴛᴀɴᴛʟʏ ʙᴜᴛ ᴅᴜᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ sᴘᴇɴᴅɪɴɢ sᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʙʀɪᴛɴᴇʏ ᴛᴇɴsɪᴏɴs ɪɴᴛᴏ ʜᴇ ʙᴀɴᴅ ᴀʀᴏsᴇ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴠᴏᴄᴀʟɪsᴛ ʜᴀʏᴅᴇɴ ᴄᴏɴғʀᴏɴᴛᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅɪsᴄᴜssᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇʏ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ǫᴜɪᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ ʙʏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴛʀᴇɴᴛ ᴡᴀs 27 ʜᴇ ʜᴀᴅ 2ᴋɪᴅs ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴀs ɪɴ ᴀ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ᴘᴏʟʏᴀᴍᴏʀᴏᴜs ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴀʏᴅᴇɴ, ʙʀɪᴛɴᴇʏᴀ ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴇɴɴᴇᴛ ᴡʜᴏ ᴡᴀs ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴀssɪsᴛ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴀɴᴅ. ʜᴇ sᴛɪʟʟ ᴠɪsɪᴛs ʜɪs ᴅᴀᴅ ᴏғᴛᴇɴ ᴡʜᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʟɪᴠᴇs ʜᴀᴘᴘɪʟʏ ɪɴ ᴀ ᴄᴏᴢʏ ʜᴏᴜsᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜɪs ʜᴜsʙᴀɴᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ᴀᴅᴏᴘᴛᴇᴅ ᴅᴀᴜɢʜᴛᴇʀ ᴊᴏᴅɪᴇ sʜᴇ's 18 ᴀɴᴅ ᴛᴀᴋᴇs ᴄᴀʀᴇ ᴏғ ᴍɪᴋᴇʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴋᴀʀʟ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏᴜsᴇ :3 (ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴀʙᴛ ɪᴛ ɪᴅᴋ ʜᴏᴡ ᴛᴏ ᴇɴᴅ ɪᴛ)

Lore Dump

This was all originally intended for the Kiss of Death series of AUs that I was supposed to write down but never did. Funnily enough, none of this is genuinely related to the main canon of Kirby. If any canon characters are mentioned, it's all just headcanon-y stuff.

The flower of Astra

- 6 petals.

Supposedly, the first incarnation cycle has already finished...

Once upon a time, before death came upon the world, there were two companions, Astra and Adonis. When the great plague— death itself— was born, Adonis was the first to fall, forever locked in the underworld as its keeper and sole guardian. Adonis was forced to shed memories of all but his own death, and had to replace his name with a new one. The new sentinel of death, Morpho, spent many solemn years apart from Astra, longing eternally for his hopefully inevitable return. Upon Astra's return to Adonis's— now Morpho's— arms, he was nothing but ash. In his memorial and in Morpho's grief, the Flower of Astra was created from the leftover fragments of his soul. Since its creation, all 6 of its petals have fallen then grown back.

The first incarnation: Viridia. A strong, valiant warrior known for her technique and skill. She was beloved by the people surrounding her, until she was accused of killing innocents. In a battle, she was chased to the edge of a cliff. Before she could save herself, she fell off the cliff and was impaled by a sharp rock formation. She slowly bled out, finally at peace a day and a half later.

The second incarnation: Phoenix. An honest, blunt seer. His truth telling abilities, while mostly due to his nature, were seen by his friends and acquaintances as nearly fortune-telling adjacent. It was suspected that the prophecy stating that there would be one who could tell no lies was him all along. As he began speaking ill of those who had been running the country, he was accused of falsifying facts, and was convicted of treason. He was burned alive.

The third incarnation: Athena. A once-in-a-millenia genius. She spent her entire life dedicated to her studies, never once considering it for her own personal gain as opposed to for the good of the public. Athena created a blueprint for a robot with a soul, made to help people recover from isolation and aid with humanitarian efforts following some recent natural disasters. One night, her laboratory was broken into by some thieves. In attempts to protect her equipment and discoveries, she was stunned to death.

The fourth incarnation: Orion. A robot with a soul, born of a scholar's plans. He was trained to be a weapon and only a weapon, but he felt much more. On the inside, his soul felt "alive", haunted by memories that he was unsure were even his. He attempts to succeed in his role to please his creators, the Ancients. No matter how hard he tried, they called him weak. Eventually giving up on the robotic project, Orion slowly fell into disrepair, shutting off permanently and finally earning the peace he sought.

The fifth incarnation: The Maiden of Broken Glass. A woman cursed with a prophecy. She spent her life as a nomad, constantly wandering without a home. Her mind was tortured with one thing, "danger". Every city, village, and town she saw was another that she warned. She spoke of destruction, and as soon as she left, it appeared. Believing her to be the cause of such a disruption, she was chased across countries, continents, and planets in order to make her "repay" for her damages. Eventually, she could no longer run anymore. Her body gave out and everything went quiet.

The sixth incarnation: Galacta Knight, the Aeon Hero.A hero of well renown. As a child, constant pressure was put upon him to be the best, to succeed the most, to have the most talent. He built up an exterior shell of an intense personality, hoping that no one else could affect his mind so much as his mentors, the Ancients, had. He fails time and time again, his superiors frowning upon him as if he were only meant to be a perfect weapon, rather than a person. Eventually, long after the quest to seal away the destructive Terminus and save the fate of the universe, he could not handle the pressure and expectations of the Ancients. He broke, spiraling out of control, and destroying a few cities along with his own sanity. They soon chased him out, hoping to put the situation far out of sight and out of mind. Still alive today, he wanders, searching for the piece of himself he lost centuries ago.

GIGGLES AND JUMPS UP IN JOY

Okayyyy, so I’m going to make separate posts on each of their lore, which will help make sense of this post, which is just how they feel for each other!!

This girl is Horobosu vvv

This girl is Yuikito vvv

Both are trauma bonded from their death (did I mention they’re dead btw?:3) and has been along eachother for centuries.

For Yui, it’s simple: she truly loves and cares for Horobosu! After all, she was the one who brought her from the dead, gave her life!! Why wouldn’t she?

For Horobosu, the need to keep Yui close and away from harm comes from a deep, emotional, form of hatred that formed into attachment. Horobosu was (still is) a demon who had tried to kill Yui throughout Yui’s life. She’s been so obsessed with trying to kill Yui and pray on her downfall that she has only TRULY known Yui in her life. Her family, her friends, her favorite foods… Horobosu couldn’t even name one for herself? But could for Yui. She was addicted. Obsessed. She loved seeing her in pain, but only when SHE caused it. So when Yui died, what was she supposed to do? Cause pain on another human soul? That wasn’t the same, wasn’t fair. She wouldn’t waste all her effort all these years. So she brought Yui back to life, because as much as she loves to see Yui suffer, she needs to be close to her. With her, so she isn’t by herself. And she’ll do whatever she can to keep it that way.

TLDR: Doomed lesbians. One loves another, one is a sadistic who wishes to see the other in agony but only by her :3

(Btw they have official outfits, I just don’t have many pics of them)

yes this is based on Madoka Magica…

3rd life was the first, it’s new and hard to grasp so the lesson is to learn fast and pay attention.

Last life was harsh, no one trusted anyone, both physically and mentally reds had to abandon they’re teams and the boogeyman broke alliances, the lesson Is trust no one.

Double life was all soul bound based. Pearl won because she refused to give into it when live killed them all. The lesson there is don’t get attached.

Limited life was all time based. Time killed them all time ruined everything. The lesson is make every second count.

Secret life was all about trust and staying quiet. No one wanted to do the brutal tasks but did anyways and that killed them all. The lesson there is don’t follow society.

Each life series gets darker and more violent- the players are clearly done with the game and the watchers know this but the winners (Grian, Scott, Pearl, Martyn and Scar) all had some power role. Grian is a watcher. Scott does MCC, teams, Pearl is a listener, Martyn is a listener, Scar had enough self control to complete his tasks in the most humane way.

In wild life Grian knows all the twists and well no spoiler version is just he is the villain behind it all, the watchers are back and they want Grian. Whoever wins Wild Life will have to get through Grian and his knowledge. He has the advantage of knowing what’s going to happen- he probably won’t win but he could come close. Everyone’s going to turn on him. He might have to try and fix things with Scar but either way… he’s not normal.

Queen Theodora Helia

character profile

Species: Alicorn

Status: Deceased

Cause of death: Changeling hoard assassination by sister

Cutie mark: a golden crown and set of victors laurels

Talent: Leadership in alicornhood, monster extermination

Known for: Bringing her Kingdom into an era of prosperity and growth, a period of peace.

She is a ruthless leader and war commander, this allowed for the growth of her country and the shrinking of monster populations in the area, wild and civilized kinds.

Born an alicorn, she was the first born daughter to her parents, her Sister ( currently unnamed) was born a Unicorn. both sisters studied under their parents, but Helia was taught the secrets of alicorn magic, as custom for the family line.

Helia was pronounced Queen of her kingdom once both parents had perished in battle to protect the kingdom from monsters. In this time after, she managed to take hold of the kingdom and raise it to its lofty standing it enjoys in the current day. She pushed back many species of creature that encroached on her land and people, creating safety within her land.

Some time after peace was mostly established within her kingdom, with an unknown father, or sired through magic, Queen Helia birthed her first and only daughter, Princess Alexandria. Once she found out she was with child, she took to writing and hiding secret texts on alicorn magic, so that should anything happen to her, her daughter might continue to follow her destiny as an alicorn leader and fighter.

At this point Queen Helia had developed an extremely trusting relationship with her closest and highest Mage, starseers father. Starbeam ( placeholder name )

Starbeam specialized in studying alicorn magic, but was extremely skilled in other areas, easily the best in the kingdom. Helia appointed him to be her magical consultant, they trained together and wrote many detailed manuscripts and books filled with magic notes and experiments. Starbeam was again appointed to tutor a young Alexandria in magic from an extremely young age, from the time she could speak she was learning magic in secret at her mother’s command.

After some time of tutoring Alex with starbeam, Queen Helia was pronounced dead after being attacked by a hoard of changelings that took her by surprise.

Notable achievements:

- created official royal magic schooling, and transferred talented young ponies into the care of tutors in the capitol.

- bringing about the most stability in her kingdom thus far, politically and safety wise, pushing out some monster species in the vicinity for good

- created magic texts detailing advanced general magic and the secret knowledge of Alicorn magic secrets

- Hired mages from each pony race ( earth, Pegasus and unicorn) to work together to enchant objects, write texts, and work together making discoveries and advancing magic knowledge.

- mothering and tutoring Queen Alexandria

Bit of OC lore dump :3

Jr and Monii units...

Guess what, I'm stupid & the reasons below

I could have just printed out a new probe attachment for my qifi x max 3 & it would have stopped hitting the bed during calibration.

Or at least in theory.

Also, I haven't touched my cad design in a very long time & I don't plan to. I haven't felt stable & or safe in my housing situation & have been dealing with a lot of issues regarding my housing.

On top of, in general, not knowing if getting into anything with my 3d printing would end up making me even sadder thanks to becoming homeless & no longer being able to do anything with it, & or even moving such that now, I no longer have a way to work on my l28 engine.

It has caused me to stop working on everything, while I end up dealing with this. its been months. I hate it.

Oh right, yeah so onshape, please let me know, but onshape doesn't seem to have just a sculpting tool that allows me to take a block & slowly shave & drill it into the shape I want. I literally have no idea how to stop getting these random sides & edges that become pointy & I can no longer remove them.

I see a lot of great cad on it, truthfully. But! I have no idea what I'm doing & for me it makes sense to just add a thing then trim it to shape using basics like my fingers. this curve equals roughly this, eyeballed. I never use math & I don't care about it. I spent an inordinate amount of effort & time learning how to never need it to just know things for multiple fluid frictional field changes & snaps of magnetic filaments that then release & change flow rate, align molecules to flow differently, how they vibrate to relay information to & from each other to force a lower resistive state to increase total mass in a given spatial-temporal moving quantized point of space-time, how & why they vortex & spin, collapse various interference waves & decay vibrate off into spirals looking like standard radiation particles.

Basics, you know the foundations of things.

Which means, it needs to roughly, at these speeds & constantly of these gaseous parameters through these averages of these specific momenta values, that are your maths base energy values at non-moving vector tensor 3d geometric window values, which equate to these directional back & forth resonant harmonic information relay slope angle lower resistant back & forth movement changes towards a given information & mechanical large macro based particles stuck together change that alters towards a given point of entropy to make it become more equal relative to the materials substrate energy value (less molecules, not more) pressure movement contained in these specific temporal-spatial regions of space-time moving among these vector angles to then orbit around mass, to next mass, to next mass, to final total directional point from opposite to which it started. Which is Newtonian...

Anyways....

It just means I want to sculpt the block by using the basics of something like in city skylines, because it been around forever!!! & whatever these words are, annoy me. Boolean apparently doesn't mean what I thought it meant, but that was probably someone else's cad, I dunno.

It's not raise up in this spray paint can area, or this square, or lower, or this diagonal cutter slice here area, or shave down & sand paper like this, or smooth like that, its not round like this particular angle straight through the entire block & make sure its edge is like this, with this previously made shape specific to shape this like this....Its a bunch of whatever & I dunnos.

Which immediately makes me not want to do it, because I end up focusing on things that I can't get because I know the angle & shape but the stupid program doesn't let me do that & says!!!! "nope, because I can't, not that you can't, its because I can't" Which this limitation is stupid & I dislike it. Its honestly a great program, onshape, seriously it is. I'm really well & truly aware I'm shit at it & I have never done any schooling for it, I barely finished the one youtube video & decided to get to my last post about the damn thing I was making.

If there is a better point & build up & push down, cut, shave, smooth, etc tool set I would love it because, screw numbers & edges, vertices, & more. that stuff sucks & doesn't matter when making a thing. Its why we use clay still on many, MANY, different designs before we just scan it in & say, "we cad designed it" after slicing it to be cut in a CNC & or formed in a cast, to milled, to printed & so on.

People prefer being able to do that, as much as I sound like an old fuddy duddy, because its sooo much faster to design these things that trying to come up with this edge change with different magnitudes & all that, that don't blend faces & edges, & leave this terrible little shitwad of a fucking (im going to kill you!!!! I'M GOING TO MURDER THIS STUPID FUCKING EDGE FACE!!!!!) pointy part that wont blend into the 2 different faces & edges that meet at this exact point that means the program hates everything you do to it.

Let alone, its amazing to me people manage to make huge scale cads without scanning, its awesome!! I just have fucking no clue how, I love the different materials & the simulations that can happen in it. All of it is really cool. But, because my brain works this way, I fucking get stuck on 3-8 hours of design that barely gets anywhere, then I get sad because then....

OH FUCKING RIGHT!!!! I could be homeless, not even have the 3d printer, be needing to figure out if the people running my housing want to kick me out for another thing, will I have enough filament, I know I can't afford more later, most likely...Let alone have access to the thing, if I end up homeless, because that is actually better than being with my abusive parents. Literally, its better to do that!!!! Fucking!!! *throws hands up in the air & groans*

The pattern remains consistent, parents lead to me having episode, leads to inpatient, leads to next homeless, leads to nothing good. I try to get job, leads to problems mentally (maybe with a great group of people to help, i dunno, but not holding that breath) & or problems parents because becoming independent & boom, homeless.

They were, apparently, able to illegally talk to my clinic & have them specify I'm not doing enough (see that other long life update post) to survive, they can't get me. I've had 13-15 different (i literally can't remember them all, its so many) case managers, from they had group therapy to enough people got laid off (their words) that no more group therapy, 4-5 therapists (several saying I'm too smart for therapy) over the phone 2 or 3 leaving their company after only 2 or 3 visits over the phone with me, one psychiatrist that wanted to yell & scream at me saying I just wanted stimulants (my adhd meds we were trying to find the right one(s) to take) after saying that non-stimulants have given my psychosis & behavioral issues (hooray for a-typical paradoxical responses, not me having to explain to another doctor yet again that im not trying to lie & I've been diagnosed since I was kid I am ADHD) BUT WAIT! Anti-psychotics, get...*snickers*..*smiles*...get this, so they make me more psychotic & I learned to just not tell doctors because they don't accept it. Like when I was a kid, taking the non-stimulants. Because, "ITS NOT IN THE LITERATURES!!!! ITS NEVER BEEN A PROBLEM WITH ANY OF MY OTHER!!! PATIENTS!!! SO YOU MUST BE LYING!!!"

That'll make sure you don't tell them anything other than its not doing something & you want off of it. I love how many studies don't include a-typical paradoxical responses to medications from people who are also diagnosed treatment resistant, together with fast metabolizer which means you have to take more just to get something & often become more tolerant to them quicker too, together with higher rates of side effects.

Love it...*smiles* they are garbage people, honestly. They think you can't be the person who is the rare one, so you must be lying, because others! Not the medical history, then constant history of mistreatment & being told you are lying by them to make sure you don't trust them (not the science, though) at all because they are shitty paranoid people in power who group up whenever one of them makes a mistake like shitty bad apple police.

Anyways, the psychiatrist (lisa green) wanted to prescribe me spravto (s-ketamine) to me & have me take it at my apartment. I asked her, because I was pretty sure I heard at one point this was the case, "Don't you have to take that at a hospital or something?". She says, no you can apparently take it at home, I go, "no way, wow. that's actually pretty interesting... I didn't know that." Because she's the doctor. How the FUCK!!!!! *REPEATEDLY TAPS ONE HAND INTO THE PALM OF THE OTHER* am I supposed to know?!!!!

Retards saying you know, lying out their ass you aren't supposed to trust your doctor.

fucking stupid.

So, as I'm struggling to find even a single pharmacy that will fill it, end up calling a specialty pharmacy I got redirected to from others & my...Insurance?..Clinic?...I forget, it was like 2 years ago or a year ago, something like that. I mean, I went through 3-5 months trying, getting no where. All of the sudden, I'm faking my issues & malingering, says her. Unbeknownst to everyone, even the people I see at the clinic. I get hit like a truck in my SSI court hearing, with them thinking I'm lying about all my shit. So much so my lawyer thinks its appropriate to say before hanging up, well at least I wasn't lying to my psychiatrist about my symptoms, after calling them out for not doing any real work & telling them complaining about having 3000+ pages of medical documents to go through isn't a good look & if the judge sees my psychiatrist saying this then you should have as well but you didn't!!!!

That, was a huge blow. Then I couldn't just go to another clinic. I don't even know if staying with them is required for my housing. But, honestly they are real weird & threatened to evict me the last time after everything was talked about & it was fine, then suddenly it wasn't. I can't have these engines in my apartments, but guess what not only that but not outside of it in the front. My neighbors? They can have 4-5 bikes, broken chairs, rolled up rugs, tables, etc etc etc, all of which are still there. Rules for me, not for others.

Simple discrimination. Meanwhile, trying to get my meds here, eventually the new psychiatrist comes in, the old one, lisa green here, never saw me again & left. The clinic, never apologized. No body told me I'm not faking it. Bad apples.

New one comes in, right?! Goes, can't help you, here's this website, I know you have issues calling people & I know its harder for you because you have to get transport & you'll have to do it like every 2 weeks & or whatever but tough it up & suddenly do this thing that is very difficult for you as the disabled person you are. Suffice it to say, never happened. He left back in nov.

New one, same kind of deal.

Been on practically the whole list of them. 5 SSRI, 3-5 snri, tri & tetracylics, triptans, 1st, 2nd, 3rd gen anti-psychotics & atypic anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, anti-histamines, thyroids, anti-cholinergics (which I haven't said too often but man, coming through that mess is a thing), alternative treatments with cannabis & psychedelics (definitely the better ones, not consistent, have tolerance issues, can be too intense, doctors don't like them claim they cause issues, they didn't the opposite, standard doctors stupid & or just need to say this because license problems), to even off-label uses of regular medications like sildenafil (generic viagra which btw, is still the best anti-depressant, anti-anxiety, & anti-psychotic I've ever taken even if it is off-label with great studies supporting that, take that fuck face garbage dr abdallah that said & claimed (never proven, where's your source?! huh, where's your source!?!?!) he looked it up. he never showed if he did to me, I found it in 5 min of just googling legit credible studies involving it for those treatments with double blinds & even long term, even real world versus clinical, which means its been a thing for a long ass time, fucking doctors lazy ass abdallah).

What it is, is a person is disabled (me) & meds don't "fix" that, even 6+ years of a great therapist, working my ass off with him back then (earnest ford), then inpatient, outpatient, groups, accommodations for jobs (hearing-aids....wow, it fixes everything), its over 2 decades of work from me as a child until now (33) & it being me finally accepting I was, & a fuck ton of retarded (belief system, views, your perspectives, your very dsm, how you practice & think you aren't literally the same group of people who had transexuality as a mental disorder in the dsm, that dont' go over variable & real world controls for multiple gut mirco biome, financial, opportunity, therapies, the entire relevant genomic sides, the rna sides, the enzyme sides, the peptide sides, the environmental influence on those basic bio-organic compounds side in a real world setting (ONLY CLINICALL!!!! ONLY THAT IS LEGIT!!!!! ONLY THAT, ALL OTHER THINGS NOT AFFECT & EFFECT RESULTS & OURS ARE BETTER & ARE RUN TO BE REPLICATED TO MAKE SURE THEY GET THE GOALS & RESULTS OF SALES FOR OUR HUGE MONEY MASTERS WHO MUST ABSOLUTELY MAKE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE FOR STOCK HOLDERS & OUR DEGREES WERE FUNDED SPECIFICALLY FOR THIS ENDEAVOR NOT FOR HELPING OUR PATIENTS!!!!! REMEMBER THAT!!! ......*looks to the side & whispers to them* who let the glowie rich douche in? I didn't know Dwight but actually shitty bad Dwight character suck up existed... *other person looks at them but they are much older* first time?) & for what its worth, running huge studies requiring 100's of millions of dollars is something else.

Would be terrible if we were to gain all the data broker data, then use all our now much cheaper & better tools & machines to better average out that influential data variable for a basic chaos theory mathematics thermodynamic moving over time total benefit & or base line, to even detriment of said compound taken with these given constant observations in a setting that has multiple things accounted for, for the given trajectory & likeliness of any given meds success & or failure to treat any given patients.

Same for brain scans in a 3d manner down to individual neuronal firing real time manner, turns out recently thats far more practical than before. Even better if you can use sound & light wave interference at intersecting grid lines together with much less significant fmri scans that don't require that huge tesla value.

It does mean a helmet is on you though. So there's...There is that.

Don't worry, now food intake for glycemic index over time, together with protein changes, enzyme changes, basically all of your blood is able to be monitored in real time now with a few sensors placed on your skin. Same for changes in your gut microflora, lucky us! Pill that measures as a few tiny sensors, to a sound & light based change to pheromones, sweat, heat index, gas composition from light passing through, electromagnetic changes for a similar thing (basically your gut is fully known, lets put it that way), same for even small & larger (small not in the nano but packs of cells) immune system movement & changes, how that cell signaling happens now as well to other organs & even rna signaling (although not as precise, it is what it is), same for all stool & urine samples being automatic (mostly, it depends again) for many things your body is doing.

Now, why don't we do this? Because the Nazi's would use it against you....I mean the ceos, I mean, politicians, I mean...the insurance companies, I mean the influencers, I mean the data brokers, I mean the stock marketers, I mean the religious leaders, I mean the advertisers, I mean the echo chamber cults online that attack you for being differenters, I mean the Ice agents, I mean the nsa, I mean the FBI, I mean the hold moneys in stocks politicians who no longer keep gaining advantages because others have the info & will now know the movements & trade deals...ers, I mean the ones who bet on ceos having various health problems-ers, Soooo, I guess I really mean everyone & anyone who seeks to take advantage & harm one another in a capitalistic society whose only value is in fighting & being above someone through all of their productivity, wealth, accolades, fame, power, & control they have.

too soon? no.

You are afraid of information being used against you. Its what that paragraph up above means. You know they have power & are fine using it, while having taken the ideological control of many of your nation, together with being a part of your social media, your politics, your lawmaking, & more to the point you can't possibly not know you would need to fight, you spineless cowards.

To a degree. you kinda all are. You flinch & let them yell at you & decide to harm & destroy many things, then blame people like myself who point it out, "because you are making it worse" so you then enable them so you don't get hurt as much.

Its not a "concession" to allow for only 1 of your daughters/sons/whatever to die if it saves the rest. You allow for them to kill many of you for now reason, other than you feel you can stop others from dying that will die not long after, not changing from that decision.

You then help, get up there, & say, "It's time for you to do it" to yourselves. Because otherwise they'll go after me now.

You are terrible, those of you who do that. You'll never have been, or could be good. But, you know that, knew that, & hate when someone shows you are no hero.

Stop them, because you'll only be consumed later & become the monster you tried not to be.

Anyways, for that whole thing, meds be hard. clearly. Turns out, therapy doesn't magic up fixes for disability away, & even with meds together it won't. Sometimes, everything is just that...Fucked. Not going to work.

Eventually, you tell your patient that you can't kill the cancer & you are going to die. You make them comfortable. Society ain't changing. The treatments haven't worked for 2 decades. I've put in more work than the doctors & it ain't happening. I'm tired & I need to be comfortable for sometime to heal & allow myself to accept I can't ever do what I want & I'll never get the chance to do any of those things I have come up with. Without a fuck-ton of help from people whose job is literally making themselves look important & showing off, & or making money like its nothing, to keeping patents & shitty society going the same way so they keep being powerful & important, from those that understand it changing requires themselves to sacrifice for others when they are self-centered narcissists that don't even care about the system being what it is, thinking that people like me don't deserve anything, that they couldn't possibly be "beaten" by my (whatever that means, its a "we work together and support one another, lean on each other" not I'm the biggest bestest retard gabagoo shitwad mentality, oooh pay attention to me stuff) designs, instructions, maths, & more, it takes people saying the country is shit, the people are shit, the whole system is shit & we have to follow through on tearing it down & rebuilding the sunk cost fallacy garbage going on.

But that isn't fun or exciting. That doesn't get views. That doesn't make you look perfect & portray your actions as being the best, but hey sometimes you can't have that. It was the best we could do, then changed it faster next time to the better one, & we kept building up & doing that. It's never a "one solution" the "this fixes everything" its a steady effort over time for people like me that, while fuck I know I could join you with enough people to help me & money too, will often not stop hating you. We know damn well you don't care about us.

Its annoying we have to have our needs validated. That we look bad, when we don't only because we make you uncomfortable to see. I look normal on the outside, so I can never be disabled. I have to be, because I'm tall, handsome, & often well spoken, lying about it (oh & I'm white male privileged to hell & back, but apparently my shit-tastic life (that you would totally love & if you did it (without any of my mental issues included in your mind there while you went through it, magically) it would be soo much better & you would love living it, you sound like my sisters, mother, father, grandpa, multiple psychiatrists, nurses, doctors, & random douche fucks who gave me their opinion for no fucking reason) & not trying hard enough because it will "just come to you" & "others will just give it to you" & "you didn't try my technique" & "this new med" & "this new therapy" & "these injections" & "this brain magnetic stimulation" & "it doesn't matter just do it anyways, homeless but you made that thing you wanted" & "you are not positive enough, thats the problem" & "even though you've been right this entire time about how all these events will play out, you don't know! you don't know really, this time, not the other ones, this time" & "they aren't as racist & shitty as you think they are" & "they wont discriminate against you" & "you should believe their lies & see what happens after because at least you got "friends" for a while" & "if you go up there they want to put in the same effort & not blow you off & don't see you as the new one that we treat poorly into the group that might allow you to become friends" & "men aren't as bad off as women in life, you should just suck it up" & ....fucking shut up.

That's not even a small taste of the overwhelming bullshit I've gone through in my mental health care treatment. People are trash. The majority of you are shit, in a moment for a little while you act nice & not trash. That means you choose to not be trash, for a while. Which means you are intentionally trash, all the time.

This is coming from a person with a fuck ton of experience talking to real people, in real life, in normal to extreme situations. I don't like basically any of you.

& I am lonely, want friends, have & will love just the same as anyone else. I love how little anecdotal this is. People break down all the time & say this when they crash out where their friends are not going to be something they have to care about anymore, as a random they'll dump the worst shit they actually feel & think of it all as with no troubles while guard themselves against those who are tasked with the job of helping.

Why? Because those fuck-tards of doctors are literally worse than their bosses, because they have to defend a license & can't ever make mistakes. They lose everything & have a mountain of money they need to send out to various other shitty shit-wads who will remove all their things & their idea of identity is removed, that makes them afraid as all their perceived validation & value in themselves & from others is removed & they are scared beyond belief of it ever happening. So they group up together & shit on the ones they try to help. They complain about the system, the system is run by them, & controlled by them. They can actively change their system, decide to say fuck you no, I know you are wrong stupid gov't system & then change that too. They don't.

they are lazy.

but, they are over worked too. made to be so. Not enough willing to do the right thing, drop out of the system, destroy the whole thing, make it better. Not enough willing to be uncomfortable like i've been my entire life, always having no stability, everything always up in the air, no future that isn't me trying to keep my shit together, no chance of it getting better for me, no treatment that's going to make it so I can work in your shitty broken system of garbage people making more garbage shit, get fed into more garbage shitty things, making more garbage shitty people.

They say, nah, I'll complain. I'll put up an example. No, you have to fight the whole thing, you have to actually change the laws, the people the fucking god damn organizations, the way you do the studies, & all the rest. You want to change the system, the system is everything.

The entire thing is people, who follow through on fucking garbage rules, garbage laws, garbage ideologies, garbage philosophies, garbage perspectives (like im sorry you feel that way directed at me, when they know they are garbage), garbage religion, garbage science, garbage ways of doing something, garbage everything that makes up the very person themselves.

You make garbage people, you get a garbage country, garbage world. A gabagoo world.

I'm clearly fucking gifted & intelligent. I'm intensely amazing at things, come up with shit that makes others with PHDs think that's amazing we should do that & others that go you only learn that if you have one. I'm a person that is good at something & have no shame in it. I'm not confident, I'm fully knowing I am what I am & I accept it. I am better than everyone at this shit I do.

I proved that so many ways its insane! I literally even tell people about how to get information that say they don't have from compiled data that gives you conversations just from junk random garbage data collection from the numerous crap around you on my youtube channel & show you how you can use that to spy on anyone, anywhere, as far back as you can with all of that data easily gotten with no money needed. Yeah, no hacking required retards trying to doubt the claims without ever listening & looking.

I showed from that & several recent posts how you can literally look at the past in real time exactingly how it happened for people here on earth, without using telescopes. Yeah. simple shit, I thought. Guess multiple colleges barely pull it off, for a shitty version, means it wasn't simple. Whoops, my bad, I thought everyone already has PHDs & are better at this than I am & know everything more than me, better math, & challenge me because they obviously are right & i'm wrong, excuse the 3-6 hour long video explaining everything about how you are wrong & didn't account for what you should have & oh, btw, why is it you didn't already know this? I suppose you didn't want to watch something like that, because he's a blow hard who is overconfident, Oh, guess what, Here's another science study where I say I told you so, & yup the same as me years ago, & I was right again, looks like you are behind me, still...

Slow!!! You are slow! How come you are so, FUCKING DAMN SLOW!!!! Keep up! god damn it, why do i have to explain everything to you. What, do i need to bring in fancy flashing animations so you can focus, slow person? Not happening, remember I'm disabled. Thinking you aren't the lazy person, you absolute fuck up who never looked in making yourselves look like shit awkward thought hey know everything garbage gabagoo-wads over here, is a special kind of treat. Look at you soothe your ego to make yourself feel better because you can't come up with solves & designs for things people have been working on for hundreds of years or decades!

Look at the fucking stupid ones! soothing themselves. My content isn't even about that!!! *cries like a baby* boohoo. You call me lazy, get called out. You made this fucking weird as hell too, thinking your ultra rare as fuck, often many of you having nice parents, money, safety, opportunity, socially you could afford having friends that would be used to hurt you & manipulate you, continued into a hard school that is sooooooooooooooooooo FUCKING HARD!!!!! with your fucking able ass bitch ass fucking stupid selves that was never once doubted about on your abilities in a society set up for you to specifically do well, with your specific personalities, your specific needs, your specific ways of phrasing, your specific ways of showing you understood something, your specific ways of being allowed to be successful, your specific ways of allowing for anything to be viewed acceptably, your specific ways of testing, validating, & even worse all of it is set up to only allow for those that can do it your ways to be done when you go against (somehow) the status quo of hyper-individuality (except you aren't its only successful because you do it together, each and everyone of you only succeeded because you did it that way!) so you think its actually amazing how good you are, how different you are, how much better than them you are.

Oh wait there's more! *snorts imaginary line of cocaine* fuck billy mays, I'm here bitch!

Even worse still you imagine yourselves to be as if you include people & aren't discriminatory. That it is fine if you ask for help from others, after proving many many tests later you need it. Tests you can't get to, you can't take without having other tests done that require it to be done after spending money you don't have, time you don't have, are aware the person helping you to get them hates you needing their help, that you want to not mask, but if you do that you then are lying, because if you don't then its not really the "real you" (because the mask is the only allowed thing to be shown to you, otherwise you are angry) then you have to go to another place, do it again, then you can only get some of this help, not that help, but you need all the help, but its unfair (fuck up insecure garbage we need to be better & we can't have those disables coming in & performing better than us on a level playing field, that hurts our ego & our personal internal self identities we are made to have through years & decades of grooming propaganda about many many views in a cultural zeitgeist that i've grown accustom to & I'm now special & above others & would look bad in it if I didn't beat you & i no longer fit in to the continuation of this mob rule that I actively helped make continue & make seem great & good. Which makes me not good & doing bad things, as well as being worse at stuff, im supposed to automatically be better at than the disables...) if we get all the help needed. See parenthesis.

That's nothing!!! Because from tests, we go into a society that is only full of this garbage that is only full of hatred & a total refusal of changing their minds on this side that its unfair & that it needs to change. Even when we come in & say we'll join you in making the change. Nope. I now have to accommodate you, & I deserve more pay for less work & its easier for me than for you.

Now its wrong that we say this & show you your hypocrisy. Then, its totally not similar to transexuality pronouns, sexuality as a whole, mental disorders, to chronic illnesses, & more. Oh, did I strike it big before it happened to me?!?!!?!

FUCKING I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH!!!!!

You know small part, while you get to have a lovely rest of you life, comparatively.

"hey, your life is much better than this person who is functionally not even aware of life happening!!! You should see that its now about comparing each other & you should be grateful yours is sooo much better, even if those other people got discriminated based on ethnicity, religion, sex, & more its nothing compared to my gatekeeping retard ass whose actively destroying our disabled asses ability by arguing with you to have anything get done about this!!! Let me gatekeep for this person who literally doesn't even know whats happening!!! Its hard on them, not me, the fucking caretakers, to deal with it. Let me project like somehow I'm not also disabled as a result of having to do this shit full time & I feel I'll never be counted in & seen, validated & heard like I should be! So now I'll just FUCKING PROJECT!!!! my feelings on to this post being written."

LEARN TO SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Get over yourselves, become the person the united state gov't kept alive after level radiation exposure happened to them, so they could study the effects of that on their body, against their wishes.

become the numerous tortured individuals by various militaries & gov'ts around the world who experimented on prisoners of war, prisoners (civilian), minorities, disabled, poor & desperate (medications, homeless, orphans, etc), & or any number of them still going on even here in our "lovely" US of A!

Shut up, stop gate keeping you fucking retards.

There will always be worse, it invalidates all of us needing help now & could have it.

Your society is a fucking full on flat, dead as fuck, nothing to laugh about, joke. simple as that.

You guys think you are great, but you aren't. You are a percent of a percent of a percent, that make it. & that's from the larger total whole of those with abilities & whose meds & treatments worked. Those who could even just talk to others, find a community, become friends, not hated, not have them worry about their fame, money, jobs, level of emotional care & effort they (narcissistically say online is SOOOOO FUCKING MMMMUUUCCHHH!!!! to put in, woow! you are so selfish & take up so much of my energy, & time, & i hate you for it.) have to put in. That is literally narcissism.

Seriously, that's a symptom of that. You love the person, understand it takes a good deal & sometimes you have to even when you know it will cost you because you love them, but make sure you maintain that balance & boundary & it doesn't become to the point of them manipulating you & or hurting you.

If you are so terrified, thats a trigger from a traumatic abuser in your past. You aren't a narcissist! You are experiences an emotional trigger response to avoid anything that might hurt you like that again. FUCKING HOW MANY OF YOU!!!! OMG!!! ITS EVERYHWERE!!!

Its shit I hear, then paranoid bullshit excuses, making up things they do, to so many other shitty strategies & more that ruin everything you very much pretend to stand for. You are broken, not healed, need help, it won't be done in decades, people!!!

Somehow!!! SOME FUCKING HOW!!!! We, we are supposed to be a part of you all?! We want to join you? You aren't the ones we have to prop up by excusing your actions, letting you get away with it, running the majority of your shit jobs & tasks that make your world run? Its you all (& we are with yyooouuu, yyyaaayyy!!! *nopes out*) against them, join us big people that are not as big as them that help them gain money, every fucking video, in all corporations, in trying to continue the gov't & its laws as it is, you all who continue using I won't have what I have now, nor the comfort with it, nor being special, & so many more things, versus them.

You have no idea how ready we are for this shit to die, you don't know. Fuck you all, we all actively hate you. You defend needing corporations, the money, the fame (no you wont have it after others can join in, have a level playing field), the "special knowledge" because only the special people with special instructions you pay the extra special amount after driving specially to the special place can you practice the special knowledge to be & do the special stuff that makes you special, only those with the people that are nice & can talk correctly get to become a part of the group who gets to learn (granted this is more for those with autism & or those poor as fuck with anxiety, cptsd, etc stuff), only the people like you get to have friends because you are the ones who do *all* the work often making sure to avoid each other until needed (but thats normal), the only way for this to be joined into is through this thing that isn't a thing, but oh boy is it a thing but nobody tells me the thing, you must know the thing, lets avoid the thing, but now you don't know the thing & half of them don't know the thing, now you say the thing, they are annoyed you said the thing, now everyone knows the thing, somehow you don't think this is bad & shitty as a species we only communicate & bond constantly (lose the hair, slow the healing, have to bond & learn & communicate effective strats to keep healing going & alive longer together, know the things say the things you know, stupid die not say things) How are you not the autistic ones! seriously! what the fucking fuck! you go against all of your evolutionary history & all that makes you as a species anything at all, you fucking gabagoo garbage shit-wads.

only the right ones allowed in, oh wait, all the "right ones" are fucking shit. you example is the same as portal 1 or 2 where you fed in a bad one to fuck it all up. You are the bad examples of what to be.

You are the "normal" in you dsm!!!!???? You are the shit that dies off in the past because you were never good. You keep around shitty behavior, shitty designs, shitty societal constructs, shitty ideas of value, shitty philosophies, shitty corporations, shitty government, shitty people, shitty capitalism, shitty socialism, shitty democracy, shitty fascism, shitty everything & then complain!!!!

You make a book & all follow through together then each & every single one of you don't like the thing because it was wrong & nobody wanted to change their perceptions of their shitty selves as being shitty & included in the book. Which made it so shitty authority figures made shitty claims with shittier evidence through multiple shitty studies with shitty famous people who did shitty work to then verbal diarrhea into some shitty pages some shitty things that were only ever mostly shit.

all so good people, who were acting correctly to a shitty life, shitty society that had them dealing with a lot of shit, would stop acting correctly & becoming worse & more shitty so they could function the correct shitty way in the shitty system that was built shit-tley by worse shitty people who like being shitty, so they could be seen as shiny shit that was better shit, the best shit, always the great shit ever shitted out a shit hole & shit pipe in the shit system that turns good things into shit to be shat out.

That's the shitty lie they shit-tly conned you into believing wasn't what you were doing, while making sure they were fine with the shit they had happening to them so they could be used like shit to do less shit, worse & make even less shit at the end of it all anyways, so that way they can say more shit was done & its harder shit, so its actually really good shit, thats the better shit, but they have the best shit yet to come. like them.

so, now you aren't special shit, so socialism means your stuff will never be validated & or appreciated be afraid of it because you can't live a good life in that shit. No way, I'm much better shit than that shit. If I was made to have this person writing this have the same level of shit as me, then that would make it so I wouldn't be better than him already. Same with all my shit before no longer being as good of shit as before. We have to keep this shitty shit called capital going & a capitalism happening, because its the only shit.

So, yeah my clinic is pretty shitty, mostly full of shitty people, & shitty times, with a bunch of nothing happened but shit. I tried really hard, they said I didn't do it again their way, then I was lying, they hated I didn't trust them, gave them the information, they....did they lose it or it never happened, not filed like before I don't know what happened I know it was supposed to be, stop following up with me on that roi, I don't believe the previous before stuff that older than 7 years because you can't get it thanks to records not being kept, also fuck you patient you don't do anything but lie & I'm better than you 'cause I'm the shit that runs this shit. Just like before. Which means its not going well. Then, oh right I don't want to try because everything is shit & no one wants to help. People say they "understand" but don't want to help. People saying that I don't try (look WAAAYYYYYY UP THERE!!!) hard enough to survive & can't get me to do anything, I mean, look I know he's disabled & needs help but I don't think that much or that he even is (somehow) oh wait, I clearly am, so they hate the work needed with someone they need to help but won't admit to it & will not change their actions & will do nothing different.

Like you. My clinic is like you, all, even like my family. You choose to say, "you could do this" I can't. That you have to "something, I am saying important not true things & my perspective is garbage but I don't want to do anything other than make it about you so I don't have to do anything at all" & I don't stroke you ego & say yeah, sure. I say, done it, this is everything to that didn't work & I need you to do this.

Nothing like watching people online, so many people I've at'd, straight up exemplify the same behavior. Not liking me mocking you? No time, again? Complaining about that, for them? How come my stuff doesn't do well? I want to keep this here, or roof bla bla, meds etc, I don't have fear fight, I know people could look in & or I could but I'm just going to steal & not credit you for that stuff you came up with & or join the ones already doing it, to I don't believe it because fuck you it would kill my entire life & identity let alone social status, I don't have to, want to, or even (now I have to literally go against all the knowledge I have here) believe you are right about the very things I made entire videos explaining & agreeing with you about showing that I know it is but you now aren't.

Want to be "friends" fuck off. be a friend. Want me to somehow show up somewhere you know I can't! fuck you. want me to do something I can't, fuck you on that. Want me to have money & time for something I don't! Fuck you all just as much on that one. want me to do that thing to have that money that i can't do, fuck you with the sharpened splayed end of a rake right up your urethra! You gate keeping bourgeois suck. Self made through a bunch of people with money making sure you make it. Pushing hard & making a platform even exist.

You had it easy from the start & it was hard. Try my fucking sets & lifts, bitch! Try solving shit like I do, then going.....

FUCKING!!!! RIGHT!!! I could have just printed out this piece I can't sculpt to form for myself on a 3d printer to size correctly so I can just fit this stupid thing together, oh wait I know I can do that but I'm going to keep it in my head & know I can't just easily do that, why isn't this fucking work!!!!! IIINNNNNGGGGGG!!!!

I was stupid, I would have made things, I then would have had all these things after that would have been exactly the same, trump voted in, case managers deciding to leave, suddenly no help from the parents, lack of food, home, meds, treatment, intentional discrimination & mistreatment together with fucking malpractice level of shit, a fucking garbage community there talking behind screens illegally about my history, thinking something is something when it isn't, knowing full well my family is plotting & scheming to look nice & act nice like always...Standard ass social engineering.

They don't apologize, I need to fix it, somehow prove my disability with them (AGAIN!! EACH FUCKING GOD DAMN SHITTY CASE MANAGER, THEN ITS EVEN WORSE BECAUSE HOLY SHIT WHY IS IT BAD I CAN'T DO SOMETHING & THEY LOOK AT ME ANNOYED & ANGRY I CAN'T & MY EMOTIONS ARE NOT WANTING TO BECAUSE OF THE TRAUMA I HAVE!!! YOU FUCKING RETARDS!!!) instead of them even being able to do treatment, having to hear I need inpatient because they can't even do basics!!!!

fuck you. You are the ones incompetent. Perpitude. Not even a word. Not wrong though, completely you are.

I'm stupid...Yeah...Stupid in a way that tries to save me from what's to come because it hasn't changed once. The same pattern, parents got involved too, sped up the homelessness. Shitty clinic, this one here is better in the broken system. Believe us. Trust us. Show us that our broken system works, that you'll have SSI even & while you live in poverty everything will be better because, its better than not that. We can't have disableds coming around here messing up our "let them eat cake" bourgeois party. We are cool. Don't let them join or having anything & stop believing he deserves our help, us to approach, or anything. WE, yes we, are the good ones, here here *toasts like a shit-wad gabagoo* and all that!

I actively plot for my brighter future & will be gleeful in all ways to watch you all suffer & die horribly. Leaving on that spaceship airship, you fuck tards & you ain't stopping me. You can fucking get wrecked by the next pandemic & or garbage nazi shitwad to anything else.