Talking - Blog Posts

Did my first art trade SUPER happy about it! im soon gonna post it! :D

who tryna get me like i get you 😞

I love having a friend I can just talk to about anything. I never really talked about the things I liked as a middle schooler because I was that one gay kid obsessed with anime and Minecraft and all that other shit but in a Christian community. But a little over a year ago, I met a person equally as gay and obsessed with anime as I am, and I love them. So much. I actually get excited about talking to them because they will listen no matter what. They know more about me than my parents and best friend of 6 years. Like holy shit. I want to forever be their friend and talk to them and rant and all of that.

The best part is, I get to listen to them. I get to hear about their interests, what music artist they're currently obsessed with, that one character from that game that they can't stop thinking about, and what book they're reading. I get to bond with them. And I love it. I love having a friend I can talk to about anything, and also being the friend they talk to about anything. I hope everyone has a friend like this. :)

Sometimes I like making tumblr posts asking about stuff instead of googling things because you all can’t escape the customer service hell if you tried

Heiya!

I’m sure most, if not all, my followers here are inactive too now but ummm I think I’m back Still sitting on twitter too, but hey, no harm in second art dumping place, yeah?  So imma gonna post bunch of pics what I made in my tumblr absence. Not sure if I’ll delete my old arts here but its problem for future me for now 

I just wanted to say "thank you" to all of you for kind words. I may be quiet (bc i'm very embarrassed of my english jfc) and don’t post much, but i read every single tag on reblogs of my art and some of them soooo heartwarming I just.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAdsfhjktrjkghjfkjh\\\\\\ So thank you again, this means a lot ❤❤❤

i decided make new blog for random reblogs because i want make this one for my drawnings\personal shit maybe\posts what dear to my hollow heart

sooo go to stupidjaguarreblogingshit for reblogs

I used to (and still do sometimes) think like this. So I started taking the initiative to say /anything/ and if the conversation continues, I take it as they were thinking the same thing and I broke them out of their shell. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm an introvert, so I don't always have the energy to do this... But since I've started it, I've met a lot of interesting people and heard a lot of interesting stories. Not to mention the old friends I've stated talking to again. It's been great and it's a real confidence boost. The more I do it, the easier it gets. :) Try it sometime ~

i always think “if people want to talk to me they will” which is my reasoning for never really starting conversations so i’m permanently thinking no one wants to talk but what if they’re sat there thinking the same and it’s just this cycle of silence that never gets broken because i’m too stubborn to just put myself out there 

I wanna make so much content for Khada Jhin, he is my meow meow and I always come back to wanting to do stuff with/for him, but I never feel confident enough to go through with it, or it just doesn't look good enough that I want to post it.

This happens at least once a week, and about 70% of the art I make is just never finished cause it doesn't feel worth it.

No art

Tooth hurt

Been in the hospital

All day

Piece

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Guys, I was looking at my progress through my art journey and I AM SO PROUD OF IT, DAMN

This post is long, it is basically looking at my progress, so if you are interested, everything is under the cut :D

This is my first time drawing Grian ever (21st of April of 2023):

Kinda messy, has strange shadows, but I still like it, I put so much time and effort in this picture :3

Then on December 12th I started Every-Day-Thingy, Grian looked like this on the second day of the challenge (13th of December):

Still not familiar with how to draw, but I tried my best

Then, on day 96 he looked like this (16th of March, 2024):

Three month later! And this is already a progress and experiments with style.

Then on day 190 he suddenly turned out to be kinda cute??? (18th of June):

I was adding some style changes, sometimes making him silly, BUT THE PROGRESS IS RIGHT HERE!!!

If I wasn't doing this I would probably still draw like once in three months and never get to now Tumblr and love all people here. And I think this is cool how Internet and drawing can change attitude, I became less anxious about posting, it is now my routine!! I am proud of myself and am going to continue do this! But maybe it is time to stop drawing Grian so much…

I want to be honest with you guys, I have this folder with people saying nice and funny things in reblogs and people that I follow and who are my mutuals liking and rebloging my posts and this is so great and sweet

Every time I open my gallery, I smile thinking about how many kind people are in this world

Talking to an elephant cos he can and cos it's hella cute!❤️

really?? me too!!

*this is especially important: these days on Tumblr there’s a wonderful atmosphere of being able to talk openly about your mental illness or your struggle. And that’s great! But there’s a difference between sharing in order to help yourself and other people and sharing just because you have no other coping mechanisms. As much as you’re able, try to work on developing a different outlet. People aren’t qualified to be your therapist because they’re nice to you a couple of times. Please remember that they have lives too, and their job is not to make you feel better or pity you, no matter how difficult your life is. 

And last but not least: 

But… 

I really don’t have a way to better this. 

Your interests are your own. I can’t advise anyone to change their interests to fit in with a certain group of people - that’s stupid, and actually quite damaging to your sense of self. 

Instead, I would recommend that, maybe if you feel like your topics of conversation are falling flat with this group of people, you move on to other, greener pastures. There are bound to be places where your ideas mesh better with an audience. 

And of course - try to be considerate about what you say and how you say it. 

Sometimes, what might seem like a harmless comment to you might be a very discomforting thought to another person. I recently had a conversation on a forum with a guy who was telling me that his headcanon was that Pearl (from SU) would soon get a male love interest who loved mechanics and weapons next, and that would be her best arc, because she would finally get a ‘healthy’ love interest. 

His intentions were good, but he was entirely unaware of how cringey this kind of thing was to a bunch of (probably queer) people, who have spent their entire lives being told that the only ‘good’ character development for them would be to get a ‘male love interest’. No one wanted to be the jerk to say “fuck off, we don’t want that to happen” but everyone was answering him in a flat way, trying to discourage the discussion further. Instead of picking up on the hint, he bulldozed on, thinking he was having a ‘lively conversation’ which was, in fact, in its late stages of death. 

I know I’ll probably get a few messages to this saying: What about people on the Autistic Spectrum? Sometimes, people can’t pick up social cues or ‘hints’. And if that’s the case, it’s incredibly difficult to understand why you’re not having any luck communicating despite your best efforts. 

I feel that on a person level, please believe me. I made this infograph for THAT VERY REASON. Because I WAS that awkward kid who didn’t pick up on hints well. In fact, I still have trouble talking to people. If any of you have had the misfortune of being my conversational partner, you’ll know that I tend to be overly blunt and come off as very unfriendly. It’s something that I, myself, am working on currently in order to grow into a better person. It’s a struggle in progress, but I am aiming towards the progress side, and I just wanted to help out others while I was at it. 

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“I wanted to be an astronaut when I was little.” Michelle says.

“Why didn't you?” Peter asks.

“Too much math.” Michelle says, in such a serious voice that Peter snorts. “Hey! The amount of maths required crushed my dreams to get up into space!”

Gonna redo an introductory post because I’m 17 now, have wildly different interests, and I also want to share links to my other socials :D

I’ve recently become hyperfixated on Yaelokre’s music. I’ve heard the creator posts a lot of stuff regarding characters’ info and lore about the world but unfortunately I don’t have TikTok and as an American I can’t get it. I know about the main four characters and the Harkers but is there anything else I need to know?

Also are there any rules regarding OCs?

am I the only one who has cried to a very happy song? I’ve cried to sticker, Hey tayo, and Miroh 😭 I hope I’m not the only one 💀

When someone is talking at the movies

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Disliking something that a large majority of people love is a feeling I can never seem to get past. I will spend hours upon hours trying to understand why on earth I struggle enjoying a piece of media that is so widely loved. "Everyone likes (x) and I don't, so do I just not understand it? Am I too stupid to enjoy this?" is typically my first thought process. This leads to me trying my hardest to get as invested as I can, to really experience that piece of media to a definitively absurd extent.

For example, I have nearly 1,000 hours invested into Terraria and have even 100% the game's achievements (well, before the last update that added a few more). Of course, some of this time is also from much older versions of the game and time obtained through the years since I first started playing during 1.1 on mobile, shortly later getting the PC version on 1.2. Video games were not common for young me to have, so a lot of playtime was likely simply due to it being one of the few games I owned. Even then however, I'd never actually 'beat' the game until a few patches into 1.3. My experience with Terraria has been filled with hours of grinding, attempting bosses MANY times, and a general difficulty to even see what is happening on my screen as everything visually melts together. Not to mention being interrupted by random events, forcing me to stop whatever I'm doing to get involved since who knows when I'll be able to do that event again. The other difficulties available as well, namely Expert, feels downright sadistic forcing me to grind even more to give me even somewhat of a reasonable chance of survival. I could keep going, but I think I've made my point.

Even after all of that, I still feel like I'm simply missing something. Some magical single puzzle piece that'd make everything click into place and make go "Oh! Now I get it! This is amazing!".

From the labyrinthian nightmares of classic Doom (and similar 90s fps) to the surprisingly stressful experience I had with Spirited Away, I can't help but feel like I'm just...broken in a way that prevents me from enjoying things that thousands of other people enjoy. I feel alien.

Thanks for the tag!! I dont really go to cafe's, but this was a lotta fun heh! ^v^

(Tags: @mediccutie @fantasytf2-au @blu3-1mp0st0r @redacted-clown @ionlypostmymeemocs @bucketmutant + anyone who else who wants to join ^^)

Cozy cabin cafe quiz <3

Thanks for the tag @pretentiouswreckingball , we all need to find peppermint mochas to pair with!

No pressure tags: @ablique @percyweasleyapologist @quillofallskills @callmesel @dawnstudies

Here’s mine hehe! (Apparently our hair is similar lol) Thanks for the tag!!

Boop: @ionlypostmymeemocs and other mutuals ^^ (No pressure tho!)

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you are gay /j

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For all the shit going on in my life right now, the only solace I can find is in escapism for the most part.

Then, when I least expect it, I see my face in the reflection of my screen and am reminded of how pathetic I am.

I need to get out of this living situation and just be able to be myself again. It's killing me.

I need to be provided with a warm glass of milk and be tucked in with a goodnight kiss.

I properly shaved my tummy for the first time last night. I can't come out right now, but I'm taking what I can get.

Jay crop-top update when?

"Nice haircut!" Thanks. I hate it, actually.

I only buzzed it all off so it'll grow out evenly. I hate having short hair please don't remind me.

grow out faster pls