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Exhausted baby

I’m so tired- :/ I have my period, I have bad body dysphoria and I wanna curl up and go back to sleep.

I feel so icky I wanna be little but with my period it makes me feel so icky and gross and then being little is harder since I still have to take care of big girl stuff. College is so hard and loud. I’ve already hurt myself and the whole day feels like it’s going wrong :(.

I need to go home be little grab my stuffies and snacks and relax

stay safe stay happy and have a good day or good night wherever you are

Yes we need more chaste twee baby gay romances like heartstopper and yes we also need more shows where men fuck raw to express their love for one another like Élite and yes we need more toxic gays having hate sex like Interview with the Vampire and yes we need more incidental gay characters like the dads in cartoons like Owl House.

It's not a competition! It's a hoard and I'm like a gay little Smaug.

REVISITED LESBIAN MASTERDOC

I wanna share with y'all my version of the lesbian masterdoc. we know the og is a bit problematic, but it helped me sm, so I revisited it. if you don't have a lot of points you aren't necessarily a lesbian. notice that a lot of points also have cons (maybe you're bi and you prefer women, you have orientation OCD, you're aroace, that's your taste in men, you are emotionally unavailable, etc). so here we go...

you believe women are objectively pretty and men are objectively ugly

you believe love is just friendship with kisses

you see having sex with men as a burden

if you're a virgin, you wanna have your first time with a man in a long time

using religion as an excuse (subconsciously) to have sex after marriage

in your sexual fantasies the man is not very detailed/the more there are details the more you're bored or disinterested/you're the observer of the scene and you focus on the woman

you constantly doubt you're into men, but you don't do that with women

you find interesting men that you can't have (taken/married men, gay men, aroace men, fictional men, celebrities, much older men, men who clearly don't give a shit about you)

you prefer having long-distance relationships with men

in series and movies you focus on female characters and don't care about the male ones

having sex with men as a form of self-harm subconsciously

you prefer feminine men

when you think you have a crush on a guy, your fantasies are never actually romantic (ex. you imagine yourselves simply hanging out and enjoying each other's company, with no kisses or stuff like that)

you think you're not attracted to men cuz you still have to find the one

you have very high standards with men, but not with women

you run away as soon as the boy likes you back

finding absurd other girls lose their minds over men

not getting what's so special about certain men (ex. Leonardo DiCaprio)

you have never noticed him, but when other girls start to like him you start to crush on him, too

crushing on the guy that is liked by the girl you're super close with

believing that being attracted to men means simply finding them "nice"

choosing a boy as a crush just because someone asked you if you liked somebody or they pressured you

wishing you were a lesbian

believing you can't be a lesbian because you would've already known

believing you gotta have sex with your man just to show him you care for him, not because you enjoy it

basing your attraction for men on their personality only

finding boring future with a man

being scared of being a lesbian and asking yourself if you're one at the same time

having an intense friendship with a woman, especially if she's sapphic

always imagining yourself with a man in the future, knowing you'd rather be with a woman

thinking you'd be 100% with a woman in a world with no homophobia

changing a lot of labels, but never considering the lesbian one. you'd rather go directly for aroace

believing you're into men, but you don't care about making male friends or you have never found them interesting, not even in a platonic way

when a straight fantasy isn't making you horny, you change the story many and many times to try to turn you on on purpose to prove your heterosexuality/bisexuality

you go out with any man that likes you

you want men to want you, but when it works it makes you feel uncomfortable

getting into a straight relationship just for material convenience or to feel cool or not to let the world think you could be sapphic

wishing your boyfriend wasn't that into romantic stuff and sex

you get over men very fast

wishing for a relationship, not really for a boyfriend

wanting sex with men for validation

you need to be drunk or high to have hetero sex

wanting straight sex only if you're subdued

wanting to kiss a girl friend "to know how to kiss boys"

touching a girl by mistake and feeling weird after it (it could be simply an arm touch)

feeling awkward in a changing room

"if she were a boy, I'd be with her"/"if I were a boy, I'd be with her"

"if I were him, I'd never treat her like that"

being obsessed with queer culture as an "ally"

"everyone is a little bit gay"

everyone thinks you are

wanting to kiss a female friend as a sign of "big friendship"

some girls kiss each other to turn men on, so you take subconsciously this opportunity to kiss one because you actually desire to

kissing girls when you're drunk/high

you constantly find ways not to believe you're a lesbian

you find more sensible gay men's attraction than straight girl's attraction to men

not having "enough time for men and relationships"

if your friend uses other pronouns too, you use them a lot, more than the feminine ones to subconsciously bypass your attraction

treating bad out of nowhere the girl you were so attached to

every time you find a man funny you automatically think you're into him

you try to like men to feel more feminine (for trans girls)

joking many times about not being attracted to men or their genitals

btw if you're sure you don't like men in a sexual way, but you still don't know if you like them emotionally I recommend to research on limerence. that's how I realised I was a lesbian<3

I hope all of this helps you girlies. you're always valid♡

😭😭

HELP WHY IS “HOMOPHOBIA” ON THE LIST OF SEXUALITIES 😭

Hey friend, I hope I can ask a favour from you. I’m a black non-binary lesbian going through a tough phase as Both of my parents are openly homophobic and transphobic. I've organised a crowdfunding to solicit for support to evacuate my home, it's been help for me. Please consider to donate to my pinned link on my profile if you can Reblog and share my pin post to reach a large audience with support . Anything helps at the moment.🙏❤️

Yo yo fellow potatoes/gremlings/gremlins/earthlings/humans (idk anymore ya'll's be cool), let's gather to help a homie out! As said above, they need help, so yeah. They have a link, so imma put it here :): https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-black-nonbinary-escape-transphobia-household?qid=0558df410eb45b5a29218a7e283e4a8b

If you aren't able to help them, perhaps tell your friends or enemies, I dunno, but tell them, that this is a story about a person in need, and that they need a lift from you. A lift could be as simple as word of mouth, reblogging, texting, crossposting on various platforms, and if there's anything else use that creativity or some strategic way to help this epic human :)

short story? (fictional..I guess)

Tuesday, 1:45 pm

Today was a windy day on the East bay. My feet are crunching the blank ground beneath my feet. I’m wearing a jacket but it’s so cold! The wool socks I’m wearing are a bit wet, and that was when I remembered I had hot chocolate at home. As I was on my way home, I see these to people close together. What are they doing? Why are they kissing? Aren’t they a bit close? Are they friends? I don’t know what to think.

I spot someone else across the street, and I could sense their jealousy of the close two. Then I heard the the two say, “I love you, my sweet sunshine!”, at the same time, but it wasn’t exact.

They’re in love. Love! What utter bullshit. 

I hurried along the snow, almost frustrated. Okay, not almost, I was frustrated. I AM FRUSTRATED! Why am I so frustrated?! Oh I’m home. Great.

My stiff discolored hands reach for the doorknob. It’s so cold and metallic. As I open the oak doors to my home, I close it just as quickly. 

SIGH

My mind is carrying a weight that I don’t to be true. I can’t fall in love. Well, at least, I don’t think so. Oh how I wish I could feel those wonderful feelings.

I enter my disheveled room, not prepared for anything, so I collapse onto my bed in all my warm clothes. 

Wednesday, 3 am

I’m hungry. My eyes are a bit blurry, so I rub them, so I can see once again. It’s 3 AM!! My stomach hurts, so I go to the kitchen, and look at my fridge.

It’s empty. Great! Just great.

I spot a remote to left and pick it to turn on my tv, then I hear my ringer go off. It’s my best friend, Jean. Well, I have a few best friends, and I love them so much. It’s not romantic...is there a word for that? ...I mean there can’t be...can there?

I pick up my phone and this is how the conversation goes:

Me: Fitz?! Isn’t it a bit late?

Fitz: lol Jet lol, why r u up at this time?

Me: I...I couldn’t sleep. 

Fitz: lol same.

Me: Fitz, I need help? 

Fitz: okay bestie! what u need help with?

Me: Well...I think I’m broken?!

Fitz: WOAH THERE!!! Who are you and what did you do to my bestie?!

Me: pfft...OH GOD it’s 4 am already!!!

Fitz: 9 pm over here baBY!

Me: I can’t fall in love...is that bad?

Fitz: Bro...why’d u thing it was wrong?

Me: because I’ve been told that I’ll fall in love with somebody, but it is yet to happen.

Fitz: u could be...aromantic? #noromo

Me: I’ve gotta feel a little attraction...right?

Fitz: Mate, calm ya tits, and look the damn thing up!

Me: okay okay...I WILL :{

.....

...

Fitz: Good night Jet, you’re an amazing friend :O

Me: Thanks, gn

Fitz: ‘night

12 hours later

OH shit...I fell asleep with the tv on! And yesterday...oh GOD!!! I miss Fitz. They were such a good friend...and I guess I’ll take their advice...not that I want to. I open up my computer and start typing in “Signs I might be aromantic?” and “What does it mean to be aromantic?”, and lastly “Am I aro?”. I’ve fallen down a rabbit hole, but OOO!

Th-that’s me...THAT’S ME!! Fitz was right...I am aromantic.... Wait there’s other like me. THere’s a whole spectrum?! ARE YOU SHITTING ME?!! WHY aren’t we taught this earlier?! If only I found out sooner...then everything would have hurt less. Well, it’s not like I can change much, so I guess I’m glad I came to this strange conclusion?

So yeah yesterday was cold, but now I feel a bit warmer knowing a bit more about myself. So HAH! Take that world! I’m gonna soar beyond and create my own path because I don’t need to fall in love to be human. Why is it shown so much though? The media is weird. Okay....a lot of things are weird. 

me fr (i got this off pinterest, not mine)

ao3 being down has me reading academic articles analyzing queerness in ohshc and voltron…. i have never been down this bad

sex, gender & sexuality words:

last updated: 8 october, 2024.

yananchay - sexuality

kamamanta - gender (social). (back-formation of latin [genere] meaning type or kind, quechua [kama] meaning kind.)

t’ipip - sex (social & biological). (back-formation of latin [sexūs] meaning section or division, quechua [t’ipi] meaning division.)

chawpit’ipip - intersex.

runa - gender neutral term for human / person.

tinkuy - liminal space of unity, complementary forces, convergence, meeting of elements, roughly translates to nonbinary.

warmi - woman - feminine

qari - man - masculine

tikrachisqa [qari / warmi / runa.] - transgender / transformed people: tikrachisqa qari, tikrachisqa warmi, tikrachisqa runa, so on, so forth.

chakachisqa [qari / warmi / runa.] - transgender / trans meaning extending across, through, or over: crossing people: chakachisqa qari, chakachisqa warmi, chakachisqa runa. (alternative based on cross-linguistic analysis featuring the arabic language term for transgender, old based on transform / change [mutaħawwil] and new based on trans / extending across [ʕābir/ʕābira])

ch’usaq - zero - absent / agender

runapuri - genderfluid

warmiqari - feminine man*

qariqari - masculine man*

qariwarmi - man-woman* / masculine-feminine* / masculine woman* / liminal-gendered / historical transvestite {considered analogous to two-spirit identities in the north.}

warmiwarmi - feminine woman*

chiqan - straight / hetero

chinaku / warminchu - gay (qaripura kuyay - love among men / MLM)

qarinchu / ushuta - lesbian (warmipura kuyay - love among women, basically our way of saying WLW)

q’iwa - translates as necessary or sacred irregularity in life (surprise) or .. as we westerners say… being queer . dotty. pansy-like. a dandy. (also means imperfection, coward, could refer to any number of perceived flaws)

chawpinpashña - demigirl

chawpinmaqta - demiboy

yuquchu - asexual

kuyachu - aromantic

kaqllapura kuyay - homoromantic

chiqanpura kuyay - heteromantic

iskaypura kuyay - biromantic

llapanpura kuyay - panromantic

iskaypura yuquy - bisexual

kaqllapura yuquy - homosexual

chiqanpura yuquy - heterosexual

llapanpura yuquy - pansexual

(*doesnt take sexuality into account FYI)

(green text indicates brand new words)

main sources used:

Wiktionary, QichwaDic 2.0, Promsex, Glosbe

T-SHOTS

I will not apologize for my existence

something that happened today

feeling frustrated while being in the closet and living with other people who dont know im trans, having to hide my art so they dont suspect a thing is really exhausting. it prevents me from doing bigger and more explicit paintings :c

(btw my commisions are open so I can save up to start hrt)

literally about to write a lesbian ass fanfic about Annie Edison that no one will read because I feel like it

Thinking about the idea of the murder itself in Rope (1948) being a metaphor for queerness and the ways that they go to lengths to keep it hidden and I can go on and on about this topic and who knows I might laterrrrrr